It’s 11 weeks today, since I lost my Jackie. It’s still hard to believe she’s gone and I will never see her again.
I would never believe that when I took this pic of her in Spain, on our honeymoon in 1967, I would be sat somewhere, nearly 58 years later, crying my eyes out.
She was only 19 and back then she smiled when I took pics.
I know we had a long life together, through good and bad times, but it’s not fair that she’s been taken from me, our children and grandchildren. If there is a god, I would demand to know why.
@Johnr
Your wife looks lovely in the picture and only 19. You had such a lovely long time together and like you say in good n not so good times.
Price of love is grief for whoever is left and I bet you’re glad it’s not your wife in your position now.
I think my John would have been more positive than me but I’m still thankful it is me going through this.
There’s no fairness in death unfortunately and we can only think and hope that one day we will meet our loved ones again. We don’t know but it helps to believe that.
Like you I’m crying today on and off…not sobbing or wailing anymore just gentle sad tears.
Jackie was lovely, far too good for me I think I have mentioned before, one of my longest friends at her funeral told me he’s still amazed that Jackie, a ‘beauty queen’ chose me.
I am so glad she went first. I would hate for her to experience what I’m going through, even if she was in better health. If nothing else, it would make up for any times I was unkind to her.
I’ve been trying to keep busy at the moment connecting my turntable, amp & speakers back together. I had packed them away but thought it would give me something to listen to instead of radio of tv.
@Johnr
You probably weren’t unkind to your wife and after being together for a long time you can’t agree on everything.
My mum n dad were together for 68 years and they bickered lots but loved each other above all else…
You loved your wife and she loved you…
Poor John. I feel for you my friend. It was my wife Sue’s funeral yesterday so I am a bit of a newbie. I got my guitar out today and tuned it. First time for years. Don’t know what to say really mate. Just keep sharing your feelings here. Thinking of you.
Many thanks. It’s not so sore this morning. Going to try it playing guitar later.
Think it’s time that I realised I’m an old man and stopped trying to do things my body isn’t up to it.
Anyway, good morning. Trust you are well and looking forward to whatever’s on the horizon for today.
I am already halfway through a load of washing, then going to make some of the boxes i have already packed a bit lighter.
Probably take a break to try my finger playing guitar. If it stands up to that, it should be ok.
Don’t know if I’m looking forward to this evening as I’m supposed to be going out for a meal with some friends. It’ll probably do me good, but still going to be a test for me.
You take care as well, whatever you’re doing today.
Good morning John. The day is underway and you can already tick off some achievements. So far I have stroked my dog and typed this! Dinner with friends will be good. You’ll see. I have coffee with friends and a dinner later. If you want to share what you play on guitar that would be good. I have a feeling you are way more accomplished than me. Have a good day.
I play mainly electric in a Welsh band, although our last gig was in April 2024. We don’t play many because some of us live a fair distance from South Wales.
This is a selection of when we played a charity gig in support of the Velindre Cancer Centre.
The comedian Rhod Gilbert was there as well.
I’m the one in red on the left, playing guitar and harmonica
Good afternoon John
I’m out and about with my youngest son, not doing much, but at least I’m not stuck in the house today.
I’m glad your finger is not too bad.
Hope all goes well this evening. Like you say, it will be a test.
Have a good day xx
Hope you are having a nice time. It’s sunny here at the moment but started off a bit drizzly this morning.
Not looking forward to this evening at all. I am very low today, probably because of not speaking to anyone and trepidation about going out this evening.
I really don’t want to continue like this much longer. I feel as if I’ve lived a long life, so what’s the point.
I am lost without Jackie. I am so lonely without Jackie. I don’t want to live without Jackie.
I would never harm myself, but if it’s my time soon, then I don’t mind.
