@Johnr
Oh John I feel for you.
It’s awful when you don’t want to carry on but also know there’s no other option.
I also understand about the not wanting to go out tonight. Like you I don’t really want to go but it might do us both some good.
Today has been a horrid day so I suppose it can’t get worse. I’ve cried a river so what more can this grief bring on…???
Let’s both go out with our families n just try our best.
I’m sure I’ll be in touch later and we can compare our evening out…
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Sorry to be so miserable. It’s really getting to me today.
I would definitely not go out but my friend, who’s picking me has done a repair to the legs on my CD Player and is bringing it round when he picks me up.
I’m sure I am going to be a bag of laughs tonight. 
I tried to buck myself up by hanging a couple of pics on canvas that I had done.
They were a bit bigger than I thought and also not sure about the white frames, but never mind.
This is in the dining room so Jackie can keep an eye on what I’m doing
And this on Jackie’s side of the bed telling me to get up. Excuse the rucksack, been getting some stuff ready for my trip to Snowdonia in June. Pictures are probably not level either. That was Jackie’s job. I just banged nails in the wall. 
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It’s awfully hard to carry on without our partners, I feel your sadness. I have been so low for the last few days, its an awful gnawing emptiness in the pit of my stomach, an intense longing to be with Mark. We were always with each other, the loss is excruciating. I hope your mood lifts, maybe tonight will be better than anticipated. There is nothing I can do or say, except send you my heartfelt love xxx
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P.S Lovely photographs and a great video!
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@Johnr
They’re lovely pictures and yes your Jackie would be telling you they’re not straight.
Well I hope you’ve had a lovely evening.
I did enjoy myself with my family and feel much happier. We looked at their wedding photos and remembered the beautiful day we all had.
I can take happiness from their happiness as newly weds…
Been a funny old day. One minute crying like a baby n the next feeling ok…I’ll never get used to this new rollercoaster of a life…
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Sadly, the evening went exactly as I thought it would. 
I really wish I hadn’t gone. I hardly ate any of the meal and only had one shandy. I just sat there looking into space, while the others talked
I apologised to my three friends at the end for not being very chatty.
Only ‘success’ I suppose was making them aware of what those who lose a partner goes through. It’s not a case of ‘time will heal you’ etc.
I bet it was awful having someone as miserable as I am at their table.
When they dropped me off just now, I said I won’t be going out for a while. 
Glad you had a better time. Take care xx
Thanks
Night night.
@Johnr
Tomorrow is another day and it might be a bit better for you and for me.
Maybe try n get a good sleep
I was awake at 5.30 this morning so going up.
Goodnight…
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I’m sorry John. Hope tomorrow will be a better day. 
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I really hope so for both of us and others here.
I must stop answering emails tonight and try to sleep.
Good night and sleep tight.
Goodnight John xx
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A bit late so good morning. xx
Had a couple of sobs so far, but at least the weather looks good so far.
Must try and get the odd job done today. I have my CD player back, so need to connect it up and try it out.
Take care and have a great day.
@Johnr
Good Morning….Hope you slept well. Tsunami time again for me…why do I feel I’m going backwards instead of forwards and don’t want to do anything at all but stay under the duvet…
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Good morning Mitzi.
I was up a couple of times so sleep pattern was normal.
I’ve had to come off the tablets the GP prescribed as they gave me the runs 
. I can’t take new ones until my stomach settles down.
I can never stay in bed when I wake up. I have to get up straight away. It used to annoy Jackie as she liked having a lie in. I suppose it’s down to my RAF days.
Mind I’m sat here in my dressing gown, listening to Classic FM, when I’m usually washed and dressed by now.
It’s so easy to let yourself go and we mustn’t do that, must we?
Have a great day. I believe it’s a Bank Holiday 
Take care xx
Good morning. Bank holiday and Crystal Palace victiry parade today. I may get lost in a crowd!
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Victory even!
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Hope you have a good day John.
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What did they win Jim?
Not really a football fan, especially as I like Man United. 
Hope so.
This is me on acoustic, when we made an album in 2014.
I’m in the middle with back to camera. First run through of one of our originals
Final version here. My playing is on the right channel. I do all of the twiddles and a bit of slide in the choruses.
The FA Cup John.
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