Well it’s day 6 of covid and hopefully I can come out of isolation tomorrow whether I’m negative or not. My son has now tested positive and started his 7 day stint and fingers crossed his wife srays clear. Iit has only served to make my morning anxiety worse particularly after a night of coughing and night sweats I wake up worrying about the.future and being ill and alone. I should have been travelling home tdy but now stayiing untill bext Thursday . Take care x
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Such a shame covid has hit you and your family and spoilt your time there. At least you have another week there which is good.
I also worry about being ill when I’m on my own. It’s awful isn’t it
Hope you manage to enjoy some of your time there xx
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It’s awful to get copied. Especially when you have travelled to Paris and now your son has it. As if we are not going through enough. No wonder we have anxiety. Sending you a huge hug x
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To get Covid
On the last knockings of covid and have woken up with unmanagable anxiety this morning and I don’t now why except for the fact tha I could have been ill with it at home and on my own . All it has done is highlighted my feelings of vulnerability. I just wish I could just give those anxious thoughts a good kicking and make them go away
Hi Shirley, I know what you mean about not being 100% and it feeding the anxiety. I fell out walking yesterday and put my tooth through my top lip and sprained my wrist.
I’m feeling so down at the min and crying but my counselling started last Friday and it’s close to my birthday (we are all going away) but Graham won’t be with us. Even though I’ve achieved a lot this year I am so over it and I fear my grief has just begun.
No lippy for me but I have got a trout pout and grazed nose.
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I can relate to those feelings Griff it feels like three steps forwards and two back… Covid has left me feeling tired and vulnerable but am so gratefull that I am with my son and family they have been amazing .All being well I travel home on Saturday and face that empty housr feeling but will get the lippy out and face the day. So sorry you have had a fall hopefully the wrist will heal.and normal lippy service will resume as soon as possible Make new memories on your birthday and raise a glass to Graham celebrate his love for you too xx
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Travelling home tdy not looking forwsrd to the journey and am feeling really anxious about going back to an empty house Miss Chris being there to say hello and how was it .
Safe journey home Shirley. X
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Since the suddenly passing of my sister a year past July I wake up 3ish nearly every night, (that was the time we got the phone call to say she was dead) panicking, through out day I feel I’m on edge, I feel like my nerves are shot, I go to work and as its my job I can do my work but get easily irritated by others who constantly complain about being sick or go into to much details of ill loved ones, my Dad also died August this year, he was found dead on his bathroom floor surrounded in blood, the sheltered housing left the blood for my other sister and myself to clean, that has let my a little traumatised, when I see blood now I get the bathroom picture in my head and a whelling in my stomach, I never knew grief to be painful until my sister and its still so overwhelming someday I’m not sure if I’m grieving her or my Dad my emotions are everywhere. I feel as if I should be snapping out of it, my therapist lady said I suffer irrational thoughts and had to stop, nit that easy as both family members just died, I’m so paranoid now that when family members go out will they come back, my heart is in my mouth probably 60% of the day the other 40 is food as I’m comfort eating and gaining weight rapidly and getting stressed about that too, hopefully soon some kind of peace will come. My thoughts are with everyone going through this too, it really isn’t a nice journey x
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Well my anxiety is back with avengence tbis morning and I don’t know why. Yesterday was a good day and I went to bed ok took.a while to settle to sleep . All those feelings of being on my own again after being with family for 2 weeks makes me feel vulnerable and missing that sense of belonging your partner gave you and you knew you were safe… Having recently had covid hasn’t helped either just wish it didn’t hit so hard the moment that I.wake up.
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Morning Shirley, the sense of belonging and knowing we are safe is exactly what’s missing. Back from a weekend away to be greeted by a void where Graham should be and have woken up still feeling tired doing controlled breathing and trying to relax.
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Same here Griff trying to breath deeply and telling myself I’m safe strong etc bur it’s so hard at times rhey are so missed and we were so loved. I hope today gets better for you xx
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Hi there ,yes I am having anxiety attacks on the regular ,also it’s very scary and embarrass ing for me
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Take care Sarahjane1. Post on here there’s some helpfull advice and support on this forum .We’re all in the same boat and happy to help and support where ww can. Talking and sharing those fears and amxieties really does help xx
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Trying to hide your anxiety makes it worse, when you feel it happening when your out tell who you are with and if your alone just sit and breath and make yourself look for 5 objects which are blue, red any colour. Hope this helps a little.
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I’ve been back home a week and still feel washed out after Covid. Anxiety is back made worse by my feeling more vulnerable. I 'm goimg out most dsys but coming back to an empty house just makes it worse . I tell myself I’m ok do some deep breathing but at times it just over whelms me and I can’t relax. I miss Chris and it’s coming up to a year next month and I wonder where that time has gone. Thanks for listening take care x
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Hi Shirley
Sorry to hear you are suffering with your anxiety. It’s awful when you have been away and come back to being alone again. Having covid obviously hasn’t helped either.
Hope you manage to build your confidence up bit by bit.
It is so hard to believe how the past year has gone over.
Take care and look after yourself xx
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Silly question . Do any of you wake up ftom a strange dream that leaves you unsettled and anxious. I’ve had a couple lately and although I can’t remember the jist of it it has usually been about Chris’s daughter. We are trying to sort a date out for her to come up to go through her dad’s bit and pieces so perhaps that might be the triggers …Any advice etc on how you deal with them would be appreciated Take cae xx
I did have dreams at first, but not now. My daughter often dreams and they do link to real events she is thinking about so it probably is your subconscious doing its work while your sleeping. Don’t worry Shirley as for how to manage them maybe book that date for her to come other than that I don’t have a clue. Sorting more of Chris’ things is yet another goodbye and it hurts so much. take care xx
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