Thank you sooo much
It sounds crazy but I realised today that this doesn’t get better there is no solution and I can’t make it right . I guess it just fades and becomes part of your life .
It helps to be able to “talk to you all”
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Hi everyone
I layed my mums ashes yesterday, Feel so lost today, I seem to be giving advice to everyone and not getting anything back here, so might just end subscription to this.
Sending hugs to you @Cheri - that must have been really tough 
Did you have family with you? Im sorry you dont feel you’re getting the support you’d like from the site - sometimes its tough because there are so many new posts popping up all the time, its impossible to respond to everyone. And I’ll be honest sometimes in my darkest moments i simply dont have anything left in me to respond, in those moments all i can do is read and trust others who are in a stronger place that day will be responding. I think we all ebb and flow like that. Sending hugs to you today 
thank you mum’s birthday today, I would normally be at her house for the bank holiday . Its strange living far away I can almost believe she is still there in her house.
I finish my chores especially on a Sunday when the nights are drawing in, make a cup of tea and think its time to give her a call.
I was in work all day today so managed to stay distracted …mostly.
I hope you are well and Ulma too x
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My sister is wanting to lay mums ashes and I am not quite ready yet,. It must have taken a lot for you to do that and I hope it brought you some comfort. You know she is always with you .
Extra hugs for you. Those special days are so so hard to get through. You tense up, even if you don’t mean to, like your body remembers how it should be. It’s good you were distracted during the day, mostly, and it’s soon over now, tomorrow will be just a regular day again.
Thanks Alley, I was with my husband at the cemetery , she wanted her ashes with my dad and my sister so I spread them around the grave as its stone, and I lit a candle and said a prayer , it was very hard but that was what she wanted, I am listening to Joyce Mayer on grief it’s helping me a lot, a saviour for me right now, thank you very much for a replying. 
I would like to think she is with me,
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just a hello to everyone not sure what to do with the tears today. I should have done much much much better I know that and it all seems so obvious now , but then it seemed alright sort of or was I in denial. I’m so sorry mum I let her down.
Sorry guys I’m not looking for redemption or sympathy just needed to write it down .
have a good if soggy day.
I hope you’ve managed to make it through the day ok Olive. Guilt is such a difficult thing to battle with. I think we all have things we think we could have done differently, but im sure you did what you thought was right at the time. Thats all any of us can do.
just hello
I laid my mums ashes Monday, I had to do it secretly so of family conflicts, it was what she wanted so that was the main thing. Just taking each day as it comes, I am listening to Joyce Meyer on grief, it’s very good, well works for me. Hope you are all having a good day.x
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You did what she wanted which is what counts.
I will have to go bk and layums ashes soon, my sister is involving her daughter’s which I didn’t expect but it’s ok I will go and do my best to say goodbye one last time .
One day at a time. Yes
Hello. I’m on the verge of a cold and so feeling down today. One day at a time, still, it’s all we can do.
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Yes I’m getting a cold as well ! Summer as well
I hope both yours and mine disappear quickly. It’s so annoying and crying makes it worse too.
Hi Ulma I hope you are feeling better, Im just off to work now, keep taking the tablets.
hello to everyone.
sooooooooooo much rain here!
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hello everyone its just one of those day he the tear came out of nowhere last night and again this morning and I suppose that’s OK, but where do they all come from .
Yep, i seem to have a never ending supply of them. I reckon its all the tea i drink 
Still a little sniffly, but not worse! I have no idea where all the tears come from. It seems they would run dry at some point, but no. 