Hello @Carey - thank you for reaching out. I am so sorry for the loss of your parents. Many of our members have experienced the loss of a parent and will understand some of what you’re going through.
It sounds like you are coping with so much at the moment, and being strong for your. Do you think having some space to explore how you’re feeling could be Our Online Bereavement Support has a few options, including our Grief Guide and counselling, if you think that could be helpful right now.
I also wanted to link you up with this thread by @Dawnie45, who is also a new member that has lost both her parents. You may be able to relate to each other’s experiences: Alone
Take good care - you are not alone.
Seaneen