what a smashing picture and a lovely memory to hold on to the pride in your faces are precious x
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Thank you dear V x x x
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Hi Karie, On our news at the weekend people on the beach having a B.B.Q in Brighton
i saw that Richard is a disgrace i really cant get my head around it. How are you today ? x
Hi everyone,
I totally agree about all the idiots not taking it seriously enough. We all just want to get back to-
I was going to say normal, but it’s never going to be normal for us again, but we need to be able to see family and friends again, we are all being dragged back to square one in our grief, everything’s so much worse x
agreed Steph x
Thank you dear V, it was a really happy day, one of the best of our lives. 
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Hi Karie, Still not great, have been put in touch with a local hub to help vulnerable people to maybe chat over the phone and get some shopping, if that happens just wait and see, anyway are you better today
im feeling it today Richard to be fair. Im glad you been referred to the hub hope you get some much needed help x
Mary bless your heart. x
Sorry to hear that Karie, I think I have now realised how low I have gone
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Sorry that you’re having a sad day, there’s nothing we can do to change our feelings when it swamps us . It is the little things that hurt, I don’t think we can ever accept that they are gone , it’s too painful.
I remember leaving Tim for the last time at the chapel of rest, it was the thought of seeing him physically for the last time ever, well , just too painful and as each day goes on , the further away it is from seeing them 
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Steph i felt exactly the same way and i honestly believe that was my worst day x
Richard you needed help from the start all those years you spent with Jean and now being alone i think your a very brave man and Jean would be proud of you xx
I don’t know how we all have the strength to get through each day,
Sending love to everyone x
It amazing what a human can endure. We are all handling it in our own ways. I feel really guilty when i have good days. I have had a couple nights where i have had a drink or two just to ease it but i dont want to go down that road, Drink is a depressant anyway so i dont understand why we turn to it. However for a hour or so i felt almost happy and it honestly helped me sleep. Im not sure if im handling things right there is no right or wrong. I am hiding behind this isolation it means i can avoid doing the stuff i usually did with chip. Its when it all goes back to normal i worry. My sister said we could all go camping she suggested Brean. I cant bring myself to go there thats where me and chip went camping. I dont want to leave him out. I do concentrate on the positive, at home i feel close to chip i talk to him i made a pillow out of his pj top and hug it. I talk away to him as if he was right there. I search for happy memories and they keep me going. I will miss him forever and i thank him for being mine. So i am grateful for what ever time we had xx
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I don’t know about brave Karie, Jean was the brave one when I look back at what she endured, she would say just get your act together.
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I agree same with chip he really put up a fight. It amazing. Jeans would be right Richard and you know it so for jeans sake you got to make the best of things xx
I know what you mean about feeling guilty, there are days where I think , I don’t feel too bad today, but feel guilty for feeling that. My daughter showed me something funny online and I laughed and felt terrible, how can I laugh .
There is no right or wrong in our grief, we just have to go with the flow .
It is hard to think about future plans, like your camping, you think how can we go without them.
We loved going to the Norfolk broads , boating, such fun when the kids were young, also took the dogs, so many memories, but the thought of ever going back there , I just couldn’t do it, I’ll just be thinking constantly about Tim missing out.
I think I would have to go somewhere that we’ve never been, I think that’s the only way for me .
I feel safe at home , because I see Tim all around, as you do with chip . Although i moan about this lockdown, I’m also scared of going back to normal, as realising life will never be the same again x
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Sorry Richard sent to you instead of Katie x