Jean and I had been together for 38 years, so I know why it hurts so much, im going now and I will talk tomorrow, goodnight all.
Richard xx
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38 years is a life time Richard you have been lucky god bless you both. Goodnight richard keep safe speak tomorrow xx
He was 57. He had a problem with his oesophagus with swallowing, he was awaiting surgery, but he had an acute problem the night he died and inhaled food which blocked his airways. It was a very sudden thing, he hadn’t been struggling, seemed peaceful when I found him. We had lots of plans for the future, as so many of us here did x
Yes, so its perfectly understandable why your feeling sad Richard. Goodnight xx
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Clare, I was just going when I saw your post, I am so sorry,.
Richard xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Have a few extra tonight.
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Oh Claire im so sorry this is why they wouldn’t feed chip for fear of that happening. 57 is no age i bet you thought you had another 30 years same as me and chip. We were together 14 years and now the girls were all grown up we were making plans we wanted a camper just a little old thing and just disappear drive and see where we ended up have a cuppa side of the road in our deck chairs. two days before he had his cardiac arrest we were talking about Christmas never for a minute did i think he wouldn’t be there. so you had no warning nothing im so sorry xx
this is the last picture of me and chip together. I didnt see it at the time but i see it now how ill he was getting i am so proud of him x
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Ahh that’s lovely 
. I can see how proud you are in your face . Ahh let’s hope we’ll be able to complete our unfinished business when we meet again 
Yes, I know what you mean, although things were supposed to be improving health wise he had lost weight due to restricted diet, he used to be a big man. No, no warning, just thought he must have fallen asleep downstairs which he sometimes did, but this time I couldn’t wake him up xx
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Claire what a lovely picture Dave looks a lovely chap. Was this taken long ago ? i think its lovely putting a face to our loved ones so when we chat we can imagine them makes it more personal. It must have been hard for you but at least he didn’t know. I didn’t want my chip to know but the nurses and drs kept talking freely in front of him i had to keep asking them to talk outside. i know i wouldn’t want to know. I worry my chip was scared xx
Yes it was a few years ago now, he hated having his photo taken so sadly I haven’t got many. He was poorly last year with a similar problem but they managed to sort things in time. This was a much worse, he died very quickly, which I suppose we have to be ‘thankful’ for. He was just far too young. I await my explanation from God ! 
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i couldn’t agree more 57 is nothing you should be starting to enjoy life then. i am angry i think chip was cheated out of a few years i feel cheated you must feel the same. i assume your not very old either. how old is your little one now x
im off now speak tomorrow all stay safe and well goodnight godbless x
Yes, like you I feel cheated. I am cross with myself for not making the most of our time together, but as they say hindsight’s a wonderful thing isn’t it?
I was 50 two days after Dave’s funeral. I bet you never imagined being widowed so young, I thought we would grow old together. Our youngest is 15, I have two older stepchildren from Dave that are in their 20s, they have their own homes now. How long has it been since Chip passed Karie? How are you finding your grief in comparison to when you first lost him? xx
Sadly too many selfish people around Karie my nother half and I were out walking along the river late yesterday and a group of 6 people walked past us I knew two of them so I know they are not all in the same house or same family. As for the Scottish Chief Medical Officer flaunting rules that is beyond disgraceful. Wonder how many others in the government are doing the same and have not been caught out yet ! Stay safe xx
I do agree, I wish people wouldn’t be so selfish, here we all are, in our misery grieving for our loved ones who have gone before and yet these selfish people cannot even stay at home.
Me, our grandson, Kieron and Stan taken on the 25th June 2010 when Kieron graduated at Cambridge University. Such a happy day. x x x
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What a lovely photo Mary, what a big handsome man Stan was and you look a tiny wee thing beside him 
Kieron is so gorgeous in his cap and gown. Good memories of a wonderful day x
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i think the same when i look at chips pictures
Totally agree. Odd how often people in high places get away with anything while others like us carry the can !
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chip passed away on the 22/02/2020 . some days i feel ok and wonder why, other days like this morning i feel drained lost sad. this was just because the door bell rang early and i thought chip will get it. It usually is the small things that set me off. I was told chip was going to pass but i fought the doctors all the way. they said 24 to 48 hours and again he proved them wrong i lost him 3 days later. i never left his side. i was determined i was going to be there. leaving him at the hospital was hard i told my family dont let him be left alone. it took days to get him out the hospital and it was breaking my heart. i plucked up the courage to see him at the chapel of rest. He looked amazing i went to see him 4 times the last day before the funeral i had to tear myself away. i knew it would be the last time i saw him. i kept touching him and kissing him trying to absorb as much as i could. i think chip is with me im convinced. I love him so much for that. i am worried when life returns to normal thats when i know it will break me. we had lots of days out taking the grandson places its going to hurt like hell doing that with out my chip x
carolann, some people haven’t got the brains they were born with and its just making it worse for the rest of us who are abiding by the rules x