I’m sorry to hear that Richard, how disappointing for you.
I’ve never had counselling myself but I know a lot of our friends on here have and found it to be helpful so do persue it. In the meantime keep busy. Distraction is good. In the early days of my grief I kept busy to the point of manic. I’ve slowed down a tad now but I still keep busy if only to while away the hours. I’m currently taking a lunch break from painting the fence. Yesterday I painted my garden furniture. I should really take a little bit of time just to sit and relax in the garden. There’s always tomorrow 
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Hi everyone, sorry to hear you’ve had a bad morning Richard, it’s so upsetting when you come across things and it brings it all back.
I find going into the garage hard, as there’s all Tim’s tools everywhere, it’s horrible.
Hope you feeling a bit better this afternoon.
Steph x
Sounds like you are having a busy day Kate
Hi Steph, It is so hard sometimes to try and not let it get to you
Richard
It really is , some days you think - I don’t feel too bad today, then bam right out of the blue it hits you again . Have you been out on your bike again in this lovely weather? X
No I haven’t today, but see how I am tomorrow perhaps
You’ve got to be in the mood, it takes a lot of effort sometimes just to gather up some energy x
You are so right, sometimes I think why bother, but you have to snap out of it
i was lucky my girls moved anything that would hurt me i dont go into chips room because i know it will break my heart same thing presents from christmas he never got to open or use. I also bought him a new body warmer because the paramedics cut his favourite one, its still in the packaging in his room. Its heart breaking Richard i know. however i just walked in to my front room and i could smell my chip it was as clear as day i asked my daughter if i was imagining it she said she could smell him too. i think he is sat in the living room just like he used to i just wish i could hold him. Be strong Richard put the trousers and the jumpers away nicely in Jeans wardrobe for now. forever if thats what you want xx
Perhaps he’s with you today Karie x
I will Karie I couldn’t begin to think of moving anything, everything is just as it was when Jean was here
I wish I could get the feelings like you do Kate, it must help you
Everyone’s different, some people get on with sorting out the stuff straight away and others can’t. I’ll have Tim’s stuff forever with me , my girls will have to sort it when I’m not here anymore x
Sorry I meant you Karie, I am sorry
Richard x
Steph i hope so i need him i been having a few hard days xx
Bless you , it’s horrible 
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i have always been open minded that there is something else i have doubted myself recently because i cant control my emotions Richard i feel angry sad cheated and i dont know how to process them, Chip always knew i believed in something after we often discussed god after life stuff like that so he knows that i would pick up on signs. Open your mind and let Jean in she may not want to show you signs because you are suffering so much and she doesn’t want to hurt you when the time is right she will let you know it will be something only you and Jean will understand xx
That’s nice Karie, I do hope you are right
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Hi Alex, how you feeling today x
i cant say for def im right but in my heart i believe i am Richard give Jean some time. We get so consumed in our grief we for get Jean and Chip are grieving to. Chip is stubborn and if he decided he wasn’t budging from my side he wont. Jean may need a little time to adjust or she may have some catching up to do with loved ones first xx