I know there’s only so much you can do to fill your mind, the nights are the worst, just can’t sleep 
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Lovely photo Karie, xx
Thank you Steph
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Steph i have a good chat to chip of a night i write to him and i cuddle his ashes. the last two nights i have had dreams that upset me. But i was expecting that. When i go to bed i think of that as mine and chips time x
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I’ve been writing aswell, but I do get more upset as I’m writing things he is missing out on:weary: I can keep busy in the day , but night it’s hard, I could fill a week’s shopping in the bags under my eyes 
Horrible dreams do play on your mind they’re hard to shrug off xx
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I had one yesterday chip was seeing someone else and i spoke to him and he said he didnt want me any more i actually felt physical pain in my sleep when i woke up i wanted chip more then ever. I think i have aged in the last two months i was shocked at my shopping trolleys this morning under my eyes. Steph i know what you mean about being upset when your writing many times i have been writing through the tears. But i need to talk to him need to tell him about things i dont want him to miss anything. If it makes me cry then so be it the emotions have to come out x
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Yes you’re right, I’m constantly talking to him , even when I’m in the car on my own I’m chatting away, I must look like a mad woman. Once I start writing it’s amazing how many pages get done, there’s not much to tell him but it just flows and flows.
Your dream is upsetting, the mind can do strange stuff when you’re grieving, it feels so real though.
I had a dream that I was looking for Tim, I couldn’t find him , then when I did he was stood in front of me , but couldn’t see or hear me , it was like he was looking straight through me. It was so upsetting, I thought it’s because he’s gone, it played on my mind for days xx
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Oh Steph thats a terrible dream however the fact is you are looking for him. xx
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Isn’t it awful we feel shite anyway , then have awful dreams aswell
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I have a idea what set my dream off though. I believe your dream is in fact reality that you are searching for him. You want peace of mind where he is look into your dreams they may be telling you some thing the good thing about your dream is you found him which i would take to mean he is there or around you he just cant communicate with you x
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I hope he is around me, I’m always looking for signs.
There’s always a robin that comes in the garden and you hear that that’s a sign but I always dismiss everything , I just want to believe . I hope you can find some peace with your dream x
I have now because i know what caused it. I know chip loved only me and never looked else where he would rather look at motorbikes. I am always after signs but then i dismiss them i have asked chip for a clear cut sign only me and him would understand. They send animals like robins and butterflies to let you know they are still around x
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Very true, Karie x
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It horrible how dreams can feel so real though,
I hope it’s true, that little robin comes quite close, I’ve been putting out bird seed aswell, so that could be why 
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When my Dad passed i had a robin visit me he used to sit on my back fence since i lost chip i had one visit from a robin just outside my front window i so hope its true. x
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I’m yet to meet my Alex in my dreams n wouldn’t know a sign if it slapped me in the face 
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I do too, got to have hope x
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it took weeks for chip to come to me, its when i said i couldn’t remember his voice then in my dream i heard him talk i woke up smiling and thanked him x
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Alex and Alex ? X
That’s lovely Karie 
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