Cant sleep, cant stop crying

@liro I’m doing as well as I expected really. I thought the funeral would make it more real but I still don’t always feel he has really gone. I had some counselling this week though which has confirmed everything I’m feeling is “normal” given what happened.

I’m sorry you are finding it hard today. The fact it’s a special day must be making it very difficult. I have three weeks until what would have been our 30th wedding anniversary and I’m not looking forward to that at all. I am sure the robin was a visit from Roger and a sign he is thinking of you.

Have you any dreams about Roger recently? I had a few with Paul in them initially but now hardly ever dream of him, which is strange given he is on my mind all the time xx

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Hi @starbright . Thankyou for your kind words. I know what you mean by still expecting him to come in, and that he is not really gone, its just a terrible mistake.
Today turned out to be a good day, I got the locket Roger wanted me to have then took my Grandaughter to lunch. Then we went in our local, and hugged and was hugged by people that loved and miss him.
But now I’m home, thats when reality hits , coming in to an empty house. I don’t know if that will ever get easier.
Please try and plan something for your Anniversary, I’m sure it helped me.
No I’ve not been dreaming of Roger, although I beg every night to dream of him. Just to see him, hold him and hear his voice would be so good, even though I know I’ll have to face the pain when I
wake to this same heartache, but just for a while with him I would take it

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