Stunning views all round
Thank you so much.
I am so sorry you are having a tough time.
I think we all understand thinking of past times.
We would remember past holidays, parties and times together when they were still with us.
Of course, now they bring tears.
One wish is that in time we can look back and smile.
I think our minds are still trying to make sense of the painful loss.
As if it makes sense?
Love and hugs xx
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Linda2 sorry I donāt remember when you lost your spouse/partner. It is hard thinking about all the good times. Hugs to you.
Jane great to hear from you. Place looks lovely. Enjoy.
The quote I got was alot and they donāt just do installations they supply and install only. Nearly Ā£600. I found another one and they are going to look at it for Ā£35 to see if he can just fix the cistern. Fingers crossed.
Siobhan 
Linda I take my hat off to you. I donāt think you had a choice. Your friend just needed a little shake. If she doesnāt want to make an effort,that is down to her. Donāt feel guilty though. I have supported lots of quite selfish people over the years. It never really bothered me. It does now, I donāt have that much of me to give anymore. I canāt cope with people who donāt make an effort. Richard called them my PLOM friends. Poor Little Old Me, always feeling sorry for themselves. He was right x
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Evening all
Sandra glad your knee is a bit better today.
Liz how did you get on with your friends garden. Hope you didnāt overdo it.
Siobhan sorry youāre still not feeling right. What a shame you miss meeting up with friends.
Maria I have six photos of Ken on my phone screen that change every hour. Some I can cope with, others often make me sad. Iāve still got them there but I understand how it can upset you.
Linda at the moment you are going through the worst thing that can happen to most people. You certainly need to put yourself first and not get stressed by others. I hope your friends understand.
Jane have a wonderful time the view is lovely.
Linda 2 sorry youāre feeling so bad. Iām having trouble too.
Linda Iām still at the stage of looking back over past times and crying because I want to be with Ken again. I do hope in time the memories will make me smile but at the moment they make me miss him more.
Iāve been busy all day. Had a lovely walk and chat with our local group. Went for lunch with my friend and had company all day. Came home and cried buckets because Iām so lonely. I feel so bad about myself. I have a lot of lovely friends. I have things to do most days of the week. I have family close by and I should be doing fine but I have that fear in me that nothing is worth it without Ken. Even when Iām with others I am thinking about him and missing him. I feel really bad because I have so much compared to others, does anyone else feel like that?
So glad youāre all here to talk too. Iām going to try waffle now. Xx
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Just had one of those deliveries. Knock on the door lightly so you can hardly hear then move faster than Usain Bolt so you are driving away before even the fastest person could reach the door. Flat parcel now on step in front of my door. No way to pick it up. Will have to stay there until tomorrow and my carer arrives. Luckily well wrapped as supposed to rain tomorrow early. Hope heās not expecting a 5 star review.
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Lucy
I feel for you and I am the same. Work keeps me busy Mon to Thurs but still think of him all the time. I can be lonely when out with people but like others here I put my āmaskā on because itās easier for me. People just donāt understand.
I am so stressed right now because a plumber is fixing my loo, hopefully, but alot of banging going on and no idea how much it will cost.
Sandra I think delivery drivers have a tight time schedule. But glad itās wrapped properly.
Siobhan
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Could you phone the neighbour and ask them to take it in for you?
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I could. But most of them are settled for the night. It will still be there in the morning. Low crime rate up here plus think if they opened it they would return it. Donāt think thereās a huge demand for plus size ladies underwear on the black market. Itās not going to blow away and is wrapped so protected from wet weather.
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There are tight schedules and tight schedules. I was actually waiting for him to arrive and got out of my chair as soon as I saw the van pull up. Honestly he must have been a world class sprinter. Nobody could have got to the door before he was driving away.
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Thank you for reading my long post and caring.
I did not find it at all easy deciding to stop visiting the flat.
At the moment k I think I will go down the route of I will be at this cafe if you want
to join me. I think that is a win win for all of us.
It leaves her options and the final decision is hers.
You summed it up exactly, when you wrote that now you donāt have that much of you to give anymore.
Love and hugs xx
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Sandra, your descriptions in your posts really made me smile x
Ok, here is the cheesy, sloppy bitā¦ā¦.
I want to thank everyone who responded to my long post !
Believe it or not, it was greatly edited.
I know many of us have said this before but I want to repeat that this is a great group that understands and supports each other.
Ok back to non-sloppy , non-cheesy posts people!! 
xxxx
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Thanks Siobhan. Hope the plumbers bill isnāt top hefty.
Sandra most times they donāt even try to deliver a parcel properly do they. We quite often have things left outside the front door.
Linda I agree with you. I donāt know what Iād do without this group. xx
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Thanks Lucy
I ended up crying because I have no idea what itās going to cost and felt like maybe I made a bad choice. I miss Drew so much at these times because he wouldāve been the voice of reason and calm. My friend helped calm me down. I wanted it fixed and it wonāt be as expensive as replacing it and the sink. I have to just let it go
Linda I agree this group is such a support.
Siobhan
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It doesnāt matter if we make bad choices; and God, Iāve made a few in the last year. Weāre learning to survive, and if that means choosing the wrong builder, paying way too much for something our other half would have fixed in a jiffy, burnt the roast, scraped the car or buggered up the plumbing, so be it. The main thing is that we try.
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Mr F has gone out. He has been very unsettled today.
He has unsettled and almost paranoid times. I donāt know why.
Today was one.
We got him when he was 4 and had no info on his first 2 years.
So who knows.
Sleepy now, so night, night.
Thank you everyone and I hope you get some sleep.
Hereās to a better day tomorrow,
no matter how small the improvement .
Love and hugs xxxx
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Siobhan like Kathy said youāre doing your best like we all are.
I get so easily upset if anything changes or I have a problem. I have lost all my confidence. Somehow weāll get each other to keep going.
Sleep well all Iām off to bed now.
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Linda I hope Mr F settles down and you get a good night.
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Thanks Kathy and Lucy. So hard to just still deal with grief let alone issues that arise.
Night all.
Siobhan
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