A very interesting conversation.
I have just woken up after a bit of a nap so just caught up on what’s been going on.
Thank you for bringing a smile during down days.
I hate being on the down slide of the rollercoaster.
Love and hugs xx
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Sorry you are down, the only way is up now!
Xx
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You always have a positive attitude Willow , after all your struggles with your daughter etc .I take my hat of to you.
Hugs jo xxx
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Thanks Jo. We gotta hold each other up, dragging and screaming out of the swamp. Xx
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Good morning Willow, I want to say thank you for putting a smile on my face last night, you are helping me on this awful rollercoaster that is life.
Sending you love
Jane
Thank you.
It started a couple of days ago when I was explaining my husband’s sudden and unexpected death and since.
28 weeks on and I have not talked about that heartbreaking Sunday for some time.
Hopefully, today is going to be better.
Sending you a big hug.
Love,
Rose xx
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I wasnt on last night I keep getting bad headaches I think its just stress.
But i do love Willows and others jovial attitude. It brightness what is a very dark time.hugs Jo xxx
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Hello rose
I know what you mean. I think I am coping then
I think about my Sam and what happened on his last day.
I go over and over it I too read the texts he had exchanged with me and I look at all the phone calls so many of them during his time in hospital.
I I look at all the many phone calls I made to him and I just cry for the loss of him the love of my life and I realise just what I have lost for ever and to know this is me now.
I do have days when I am in total despair,
I have had a smile on my face this past couple days.Reading the comments on here some very funny doing their best to cheer us up.
Nothing wrong with a bit of banter I know not to everyone’s taste.
If only a brief respite but we can’t all be funny all of the time so we must grab what we can when some people on here are trying their level best even in their own grief to help.
Lots of love and comfort to all Doreen xx
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Thank you xx
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Hi everybody.
I just want to thank you all for your support last night.
I’ve had another tearful day but I think I’m all cried out now and I’m ready to face tomorrow.
We’ve got this. With each others help.
Hoping to sleep tonight
Love and hugs
Liz x x
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Hi Liro
Just sending lots of love to you. I do hope you manage to have a good sleep tonight.
It doesn’t take much to make me tearful either, and I think that so many of us expect to be able to keep strong, but it’s so different when no-one is there to pour your heart out to and tell you everything will be alright.
I know that we will all get through the dark times eventually and in the meantime it’s so comforting to have the encouragement of everyone in this forum, knowing that we are not completely alone.
Night night, and I hope tomorrow is better and brings a little peace for you.
X
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Thankyou so much
X x
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I’m trying really hard to avoid thinking about that nightmare of February (his death) and March (his funeral) as it doesn’t do me any good at all.
Today I was at home, enforced imprisonment as the boiler was being replaced so I couldn’t leave the house/garden. By 7pm I was up the wall, so I drove to the nearby hill and walked to the summit. The moon was red and the sky was streaked with bright red clouds, it was spectacular. I stood on the very edge of a high rock and spoke to him, then walked back down through the woods. By this time it was very dark but I’m not afraid of that, risky I know, but so what?
I though that I was getting better with all this, but on the way up I was hyperventilating. Crying without tears. If my friends and relatives could have seen me they would be shocked.
Another day tomorrow.
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Sorry you are feeling so low.They come from out of nowhere. I have had a bad day, too. I couldn’t settle, tried gardening, housework, paperwork, but my brain was addled. I went for a walk and ended up at the cemetery. Sat on my first husband’s grave and had a chat, visited the rose bed where Jeremy’s ashes were scattered, which is also the place where my parents and sister are.
Bad idea!
I hope tomorrow is better for you.
Xx
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Sending a big hug xx
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I am sending a big hug xx
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Today was a bit better than yesterday .
Fewer tears.
However, a photo of my husband popped up so the tears started.
I miss him so much.
Big hugs for all of you xx
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There are old Facebook friends that I have not told about Jeremy, I seldom use Facebook now. I posted the news last night. Today there were lots of responses. Although they were supportive, I just cried. Xx
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Hi @SadGirlfriend, @RoseGarden and @Willow112
I’m sorry you’re all having a hard day.
These dips are so horrible.
I’m a bit better than yesterday but mostly because I’m emotionally exhausted.
I’ve cried so much the last 2 days I think I’m all cried out.
I’m hoping to sleep a bit more tonight. But as you can see I’m awake yet again
I’ve had my 2 hours and now I’ve got to fight to get back off.
Oh how I long to sleep for longer in one go and not 2 hours, then an hour here and there.
I wish eveyone a better day tomorrow
Sending love and big big hugs
Liz x x 
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I’m sending you all lots of love and hugs 
Yesterday was so bad. I don’t know why, but every little thing set off the tears, because I could see my Bill in everything I touched or did.
A friend had given me a book which says on the front “comforting words to strengthen your soul”. It’s a book you can dip into and not have to read from beginning to end. I know my friend thought it might help, but it will be going to the back of my bookshelf. I read one or two of the passages and ended up in floods of tears. Does anyone else feel totally drained. I feel I’m getting worse. I seem to be crying much more. I keep telling myself Bill wouldn’t want me to be like this but I just can’t help it. I miss him soooooh much, I love him soooh much. I know we can’t change the situation but I really don’t know how to carry on. The thought of dark nights (we used to cosy down and watch tv), winter and Christmas fills me with absolute dread.
Tears falling now just thinking about it.
Oh, I hate this life. I don’t want it but I can’t change it. 
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