Good morning to everyone.
I hope today brings more ups than downs for us all. “Morning Anxiety” was so debilitating earlier on. Panic and apprehension.
For any of us that are feeling extra vulnerable today for whatever reason I hope you feel more at ease as the day wears on.
Much love xx
Sounds like you’ve had some fun with the dogs overnight! I’m really lucky, mine just sleep through the night.
I’ve been to Glastonbury a few times and am not a fan of watching on tv as I get so jealous! But it’s mad how young Billie Eilish is and she’s headlining the pyramid!
@Tina19 I’ve woken with terrible anxiety today too, hoping it eases for us both soon.
I hope everyone has a day that is kind to them.
Lucy x
We need to give the morning anxiety a name! I’ve been calling them the yucks!
Hope it eases as the day goes on Lucy
Mum and I went to a lot of live music and the Download Festival. She told me tales of festivals she went to before I was born and I asked if she’d ever done Glastonbury it she said no
She told me tales of how hard it was getting to the places, she hated camping, the dreaded toilets or lack of. She never knew where she was going (no sense of geography) but one of her favourites was getting on a farmers trailer to get to the place
So 2011, Glastonbury’s 40th anniversary and the tv is showing footage from the first one. Punters getting a lift on the farmers trailer and my mum piped up “ooh look it’s that festival I told you about where we got the lift on the trailer. Oh look that’s the hill we camped on I told you about”
“Mum” I said “you’ve been to Glastonbury” 
The weather is nice here, may venture into the garden for a bit
Beki x
Not the same kind of story but reminded me of my mums daftness. Which I miss alot! Used to say ‘you’re a tit’ a lot! We were watching music videos once and she was like cor he’s nice isn’t he? I said mum its LADY GAGA! She was like shit….
Sorry your memory made me think of that. Before Xmas last year she ‘FaceTimed’ me when I was shopping as she wanted me to pick something up for her. She’s like nic, nic, I can’t see you! Why can’t I see you? I was like cos you rang me and didn’t FaceTime me…. We both laughed. Sorry I miss her silly moments….
I call my anxiety the funk. I’m in a funk…. Got the funks….
Hope all ok today. Lots of love to you all
Nic xxx
Haha that’s a great story Beki! I like how she palmed it off as just some festival she’d been to when in fact it was actually the biggest one in the world. My mum always wanted to go but knew it was way too vast and busy for her.
It’s awesome when you have a mum to do those sorts of things with isn’t it, my mum went to many gigs with me and all sorts of exhibitions. I’m a huge Amy Winehouse fan and she’d come to anything related to her with me. It’s also very bittersweet that I won’t have her to go with now, but I do have some wonderful memories.
I like the funks and the yucks, I shall start using these. Has anyone been prescribed medication for the anxiety? I know everyone is different but I just wondered if it’s helped anyone.
@nicnic that’s so funny! I think it’s a trait you automatically get given once you become a mum. My mum used to do so many daft things unintentionally and me and my brother would always dig her for it.
Back to work for me this evening, I hope the dogs will be ok.
Lucy x
FaceTime is the cause of so many good memories I get for many of us
I used to phone mum (in another room) out this filter on and do my Les Dawson voice “am I the prettiest girl in the world mummy”
The last concert we did together was seeing Gaga in Las Vegas and it was amazing. We loved it so much.
I love how you used to call her a tit, I used to call mine “yer knob” when she did daft things!! It’s these things that make the relationship great isn’t it?
Beki x
I take citalopram for anxiety and have for a long time. I feel it helps me but it is different for everyone. It is definitely worth talking to your doctor and exploring everything.
Amy Winehouse was an amazing artist.
I bet your dogs will be excited when you get home and that will be lovely. Will check in with you later
Been out in the jungle aka the garden and done some more hacking back
Before
Beki x
I’ve been on medication for years for my mental health but think I might need something specifically for anxiety, I’ll give them a call next week.
Gaga in Vegas??!! Oh wow that must’ve been incredible! I’m incredibly jealous of that one. We definitely have cool mums.
Yes it will be nice to not come home to an empty flat, I have the option of taking then with me but they’ve had a hectic couple of weeks so think resting at home will do them some good.
The garden is looking good!
Lucy x
Night all.
Lucy, hope work went well and the dogs gave you a good welcome home.
Hope everyone has had a good day. Today was a better day for me, they do happen!
Looking forward to hearing what every one has been up to - or not up to, sometimes you just have to let yourself do nothing!
Beki x
Hi to everyone.
Good to hear Beki you’ve had a good day or two.
A walk to the local Asda to take back a toaster that only toasts half a slice of bread is the only productive thing on my agenda today. Mind you. Should have kept it. Half the toast means half the calories.
Struggling with anxiety myself as well. It seems to be anxiety about everything now. Does anyone else get anxious about getting older and what will happen when we get frail, or is it just me? Really scared of taking mind-altering medication and it would be ideal if I could have the beta blocker Propanalol that just treats bodily symptoms but you can’t with an Asthma history.
No sun today. a lot cooler.
Hope we all have a good day.
Thinking of you in your absence Christine.
Much love. xx
Big difference Beki. Looks great.
First night back at work went well, had a couple of wobbles when the DJ played some Michael Jackson, me and my mum love him. The dogs were so quiet when I got in, must of been fast asleep! But they were incredibly excited when they saw me which was lovely. Had a friend meet me when I finished so I didn’t have to go home alone, he’s staying until this afternoon.
I’m glad you had a better day, it gives me some optimism!
That sounds like a terrible toaster!
Lucy x
Hi Tina,
I’ve had to take toasters back to Asda before now only buy brand ones.
I take Amitriptyline to help with sleep and depression, certainly has helped with sleeping since my dose was put up to two per night.
I used to get anxious about growing old especially when I was younger, my mum had me when she was forty and the thought of losing them was terrifying. By the time mum and dad both died I was married and had children of my own, it’s been well over twenty years ago now I remember being sad, but back in those days the expectation was just to carry on, I only had one day off work for the funeral. Today things have changed greatly, we understand more about grief and how it effects us all individually.
I was always afraid of us both getting older with Doug being 18years older than me knowing I would probably loss him first, which I have.
Now, death has no fear for me, everyday I’m one step closer to being reunited with the love of my life my soulmate Doug.
With my faith I know we are going to be reunited again.
Probably the only fear I have now is not illness that comes with age, but dying alone. I do tell my children to check up on me if I haven’t been on family WhatsApps group.
Just incase your wondering I’m 64years, some days I feel older.
Debbie X
Hi everyone I’ll get back to you all later, just going out to a cat cafe with my daughter and grandchildren.
Love Debbie X
Oh yes I get those feelings! I used to tell my
Mum off for it but now I get was she was saying and feeling. As these life events happen we do get that feeling of moving a rung up the ladder and questioning things and worrying. I feel very aware I don’t have family so as I get older what will happen etc but that is easy to fall into catastrophising.
I think as a society we need to get better and who knows how our community will grow. Who we will meet and what bonds we will form. I have other friends in a similar position to me and we joke about a commune but it’s not that mad. Finding a good and supportive place. Sometimes those we might momentarily envy with families etc don’t have it better and have it even worse. Just like grief, even with other people they feel the same pain as us
Oh I am philosophical today
Good luck with ToasterGate!!
Beki x
Good your first night went okay Lucy and so pleased you had your friend to stop with you
I couldn’t sleep for love nor money last night. Not stressed or anything, just awake! This happened before mum too and I put some of it down to peri menopause. Took a diazepam and eventually drifted off
What are your plans for today? Chill back with the dogs?
Beki x
Thanks! It is a Herculean task that’s for sure. May do a little more today. It’s still a nice day but a lot more blustery.
I’m really lucky in my neighbour helping and if we cut back lots of the shrubs and trees he takes them up to his car unit on a farm to burn them which is a big help. Another neighbour has a high powered garden shredder so that will help too.
I keep discovering more of our daft garden ornaments and kitsch which is fun.
hope you have a lovely Sunday
And @christine51 sending you massive virtual hugs and hope you are okay. We are all thinking of you xx
Beki x
I’m not back in now until Wednesday but at trying to make plans to keep busy. From then on I’ll be in more of a routine back at work, hoping then I’ll enjoy my days off more and being alone won’t be the end of the world.
You must be feeling tired today then! Don’t wear yourself out in the garden too much.
Yes I’m just relaxing with the dogs today, my friend left recently but he will be back sometime tomorrow, trying to enjoy my own company for once!
Lucy x
Yes I won’t do too much today. Just a few bits to get some fresh air
I’ve been watching Snowflake Mountain on Netflix - hilarious. They dump a load of spoilt 20somethings to survive In The Lake District
Beki x
love Debbie X X