Hi Michelle,
Just to say I’ve heard people say that you should try give at least 6 months before even considering consulting a medium as we are so vulnerable in these first few months x
However in these cases take what resonates with you as a lot of the mediums say 
x
Hope today brings you a little more ease xx
Hi Suzanne,
I think it was Lindisfarne because I recognise the name. The panic was fun as a kid!
Just come in from the garden. Having cut and screwed a trellis bit and prepared another, tidied away some dead bits out of the scorched garden, I was sitting in the shade of the patio doing a puzzle and noticed the creep sauntering up his path with no top on. I had to freeze until he came back down the path or he would have seen me. He was pegging his top out to dry for when he goes back to work. I hate him!!! So I’m now stuck until he goes back to work. Really haven’t got much done at all.
Looking at my garden I cannot see anything thriving in this heat. Even the hydrangea is shriveling up. Actually the lillies are doing well, though they have lost their blooms. Even the irises are flagging. Nasturtians love the sun and they’re on the turn. We really need rain. I’ll take a pic of the deep splits in the clay soil between planting. I did see a magpie taking a drink out if the waterfall hose. So lovely because I don’t get the birds now, even my little robins, since I stopped putting food out because of the rats.
Hope you’re enjoying your days off. Is it hot up there?
Lots of love xxx
Hi Debbie,
It is so lovely to see you in your pic (I like your dress)! You remind me of my lovely Aunties when I was young, always baking goodies for the weekend visits. Always had activities in a bottom drawer so I didn’t get bored. I loved them so much and was inspired to write poetry which is featured in my textiles. My goldfish and eel are named after them, Elsie and Hilda.
I’m really pleased that todays visit hasn’t been upsetting but rather a good day remembering a very special man indeed! Doug is so loved. He will be enjoying you all remembering him with love. You will never ever get used to not having him with you but like you said you will join him and he’ll be waiting for you. You are very brave to go there and sit with him. I’m getting upset. It is a wonderful place. Are those people in the background jumping off the rocks? I love the seaside. Wish I was hunting in rock pools.
Just waiting for the creep to buggar off back to work. Been doing bits in the garden but it is so hot in the sun. I was enjoying my puzzle book in the shade when the creep walked up his path with no top on. I was just telling Suzanne how much I hate him and I don’t even know him. I resent having to come in just because he is there.
Enjoy the rest of your day. Love seeing your pics.
Lots of love xxx
Hello again!
So pleased your garden is being watered in this heat. I couldn’t do mine every day and it was frazzled yesterday when I soaked it. You really will need a rest when you get back. It has been a very well organised trip. We always did stuff but not everyday. I do remember loving the go kart racing. It was before I could drive and I was determined to win, and did! So competitive. Zip wire was fun. I don’t like heights and can’t remember where it was but I loved it. Your holiday really is bringing back so many wonderful memories of camping and weekend trips out.
It’s always sad when a holiday ends but you’ve had a wonderful time and great weather. It’s hot again here (27) so not really getting a lot done in the sun. But I have my determination back and will do bits in short bursts.
It’s lovely that you get on well with your family. Hope the teenagers enjoyed it and didn’t have their heads in their phones all day.
Hope the journey back is not too gridlocked.
Lots of love xxx
Hi Michelle,
It is horrific and the only thing I can say is it will ease a little until the next wave. Nothing helps but we do all understand it because we have all felt it. I’ve wondered about a medium out of sheer desperation for a sign or something but I am very sceptical because they can research so much info about you beforehand, such as sites like this. When mam first left I kept finding baby white feathers on the doorstep. When I was in despair I could smell the candle in the chapel of rest (really pungent) and I felt her with me in the room, and even turned to see if she was there. You will see signs of her if you are open to it. Robins are messengers from loved ones, telling us they are ok. It’s always a relief when you get a slight reprieve from the intensity of grief. I’m glad you aren’t alone and have your husband. Tell him how desperate you feel to not have your mam. My whole family disintegrated when mam died and don’t speak to me. I’m pleased you aren’t alone.
I think the grapes reference is an easy one to guess at because lots of people associate grapes with being ill. They are easy to eat and juicy. Just keep an open mind, that’s all I’m saying. I’m quite suspicious and defensive when I feel vulnerable. Glad you didn’t part with any money.
Are you able to get some sun with a cuppa, just to give yourself 5 mins timeout? I always find it helps a little. Even looking out of the window at the sky may give you a rest from the intensity.
I’ve been sitting out in the garden and doing bits in short bursts because it’s so hot. Just waiting for the creep to get back to work and then I can get back out there.
Thinking of you with love xxx
Hi Christine
How are you today?
I was woken up by Zoe being sick at 6am, not a good start to the day.
I was fretting about getting my sister a little extra something for her birthday today to go with the bird thing so decided to go to town at 7.30am. I text her to ask when it would be convenient to drop it off. She told me she was enroute to a holiday for the weekend. She didn’t say anything when we were texting late last night about going away. So rightly or wrongly I’m annoyed. Not that she has gone away, but that I wasn’t worthy of her saying anything when it impacted me too as I wouldn’t have had to rush down town otherwise if I’d known. She’s always done that though, nothing new there. Week before last she was on holiday when I accepted that delivery for her and when she came to collect it she never stopped for a bit or even called round again. As you can see I’m a right whinge-bag about it. It just makes you feel of no worth though. Anyway I ended up going to town and saw these sheet glitter mosaic stick on tile sheets in Poundland reduced to 50p a sheet so got 4, don’t know what for exactly but liked them!
I need to get in the garden to dead head today and untangle the creepers from my plants. They are so strong.
Glad to hear Porsha is being her demanding self! - cats aren’t shy at telling you what they want. Which is a good sign. I do know what you mean though about you fretting about her not being with you.
I do Amazon shopping now and again. The Morrisons one but sometimes they hardly have things in stock. It’s great that it’s on the day delivery but I’m not sure my Brother will renew Prime when it goes up in price and it’s not worth it for me as I hardly buy from Amazon otherwise.
Well, just gonna grab a coffee. Can hear next door has come back in the garden so that’s my dead-heading gone for a Burton as they say!!
xx
Hi Jane,
What a wonderful beach. I loved going to South Shields most weekends growing up, looking in rockpools and collecting shells. Just been wishing I was with Debbie on her hols. I’m in London and so wish I lived by the coast, any coast would do! Looks so cool. Mam always said a walk would ‘blow away the cobwebs’. Would love to walk along the beach.
Are you on hols? Think I must have missed a bit trying to catch up on posts.
Lots of love xxx
@christine51
no I live 10 min walk to the beach at Cleethorpes. First time I’ve been since lost my Mam, was lovely sat down for a bit just thinking.
Think when you live near a beach you do take it for granted really.
Hi Jane
Love the pics x
Hi Tina,
What is wrong with her? I would be more than annoyed and would keep the lovely bird feeder for yourself. Don’t give it to her. She doesn’t deserve it. Why are your brother and sister so selfish and mean spirited towards you? I know it hurts you, as my family do to me (still waiting to hear from my niece about swimming, even though I’m paying £40 a month for her membership). It seems that being ‘nice’ is an open invitation to being walked all over. Sorry Tina, I’m so angry that you are treated like this. Next time she wants you to take in a parcel don’t reply to her text. She’s a big user. If you stop doing stuff for them both and aren’t available they’ll get the hint, perhaps. Do you ask any favours of her? I wish we could all come round and be with you. It’s because you are alone that they are able to get away with it. You aren’t a winge bag at all. Bet everyone here thinks the same. I am glad the trip into town was worthwhile. You could create one of your lovely sparkles and hang it in the window for your mam.
Still waiting for the creep to buggar off back to work. I hate that I have to come in when he’s popped back for lunch. And of course I hate that he’s wandering around his garden with no top on. Just don’t want to see that. At least he’s not naked! I was telling Neil he’s like The Greasy Strangler and also The Creep (a horror about the underground - brilliant, really scary). It’s so hot out there in the sun. I had to do bits and stop. But then it was heavy going trying to screw the trellis together by hand because the electric one isn’t working. Trying to get it done today because the creep will be here over the weekend and I’ll not get out there.
I was dead heading and kept finding the cats in shady dens under the plants. Cool for them on the soil. So lovely until I find cat poo (not Porscha) just randomly plonked, not even tried to cover it. What a cheek!
Think I’ll grab a coffee too. I love this friendship we all have. Been enjoying Debbie’s holiday pics. Reminds me of all the hols we went on camping and days out. Miss being part of the family, before it happened.
Creep still here. Wish he’d sod off!
What will you do now? Is Zoe ok now? She must have been scavenging in the bin. Could be the heat. I was up at 5am doing chicken for Porscha (pour boiled water over it to heat and soften it up). She is so spoilt. I can never get back to sleep unless I’m exhausted and I seem to be recovered again.
Chat later. Lots of love xxx
Hi Jane,
You are so lucky to have that on your doorstep. It is true that you don’t do stuff if it is near you. Like when I lived in Camden. I went there every weekend when I lived at home with my parents. Then just stopped doing that stuff when I actually lived there.
Great to see you out. You could try a walk along the beach as a daily routine, and walking the dog is a perfect excuse to have to. Being out will clear your thoughts perhaps, or give you some space to just be for a short time. Whatever helps to ease the intensity of the upset is worth the effort. I’d love to live by the seaside. You really are lucky!
I tend to garden when my creepy neighbour is at work. I feel closest to mam there but it’s also upsetting that she’ll never see what I’m doing. I imagine her alongside me, advising, suggesting we stop and have a cuppa. I have fencing and trellises to put up. Just trying to finish the last of the painting. Will be great to get it all done and be able to sit and do nothing.
Bet there’s a nice breeze there. It’s very intense here with 27 in the sun. Prefer to sit with a puzzle book and a choc ice in the shade.
Hope you enjoy many more walks!
Lots of love xxx
Suzanne
Just found a drought easy to grow herb - thyme. Got a newsletter from Gardeners World. Worth joining for tips. Well drained soil. xxx
@christine51
I’m sure your mams watching you in the garden thinking what a wonderful job your doing. Oh dear that doesn’t sound good having a creepy neighbour 
Beach was empty as well so that’s always nice.
I’m like you, I love the sun but always enjoy sitting in the shade more
Enjoy your day x
Hi everyone, it’s our last day, sitting on the beach at Mawgan Porth, somewhere out there my grandchildren and son-in-law are surfing, and my daughter taking photos.
It’s been a lovely week, I’ve really loved being with my family.
We have laughed alot and Doug has never been far away from out thoughts and conversations.
In a way part of me is not looking forward to going home and being on my own again, another part of me wants to go home, especially to catch up on sleep.
I’ve had Doug’s photo with me all week, so he is everywhere I go.
The sea is starting to come in now and I’m going for one last paddle.
Yes, @christine51, that was some teenage boys jumping in the sea off rocks at Looe.
Speak to you all soon
Love Debbie X X
Hi Debbie,
It’s always sad at the end of a holiday but when you return you’ll settle into a new routine. Are you off all summer for college? Be nice to start swimming again and maybe have some days away and the freedom to go visiting. The kids will be around so I’m sure you’ll have lots of things lined up, even if it is just going to the park. I find keeping busy helps get me through the day.
Creep hasn’t gone back to work and I’m stuck in the house with the windows and curtains closed. Realised he is watching my every move. As soon as I went to the kitchen to make a drink he practically ran up the garden so he could watch me presumably. I didn’t dare go out to bring in the tools. The gardens are on a slope so he has a view with table and chairs set up to look down onto my windows. Oh to have the freedom of the seaside! That beach looks fabulous!
Be nice having you home but we have enjoyed your pics. Thank you for posting them. Safe journey back.
Lots of love xxx
Hi Christine
Hope Creep went in and gave you some peace. At the moment round here it looks like the entire street Is out on their front.
Don’t really know what’s going on with Zoe, it’s been one thing after another with her recently. She picks things up, anything and everything. Turned my back today and she’d ran off my brother’s reading glasses and bit the ear tips off so I had to tell him before he came home later on. So whether she’s eaten something she shouldn’t I don’t have a clue. Wouldn’t care but her diet is more nutritious than mine is!
It’s really expensive to use the pool isn’t it. Everything tends to be by the month terms these days doesn’t it. It would be good if you could cancel and pay as you go. It’s about consideration and courtesy more than anything else, it’s not that you want anything in return just a bit of decency.
Speaking of another kind if decency I hope Creep has gone in. I’m sure he’s no David Hasselhoff from the Baywatch day’s!
I think I’ve got over the shock of “birthday-gate”! She should just have mentioned it so I’d not have been thinking I need to run round to find an extra gift in a short time frame that’s all I can’t go out of town right now there’s a strike so maybe that’s a good thing, less money-spending! I wanted to go to Home Bargains but there isn’t one in my town.
Nearly bought a rose today but didn’t. They were those £2.00 ones that are indoor roses and they don’t stand being put outside so have always died. Have you had them?
I’ll see what this evening brings, have a good one
xx
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Hello Debbie
They are really nice photos and the scenery is so serene and calming. You are doing well because I found the 2nd year to get harder and I admire you for getting out amongst things. It’s not easy.
xx
Hi Debbie
You should have had a go at the surfing as well!
My niece surfs and dives in Newquay beach as she lives their now. Not something that would appeal to me but I can’t swim anyway!
xx
