Hi
My dad went from ‘ok’ to ‘end of life care’ within a week. He and my mum had been self-isolating for a couple of weeks prior to his being taken into hospital. They had celebrated his 80th birthday on Sunday 22 March, he was admitted to hospital on the 25th, his illness progressed very quickly and he died on the 31st. We obviously could not visit him in hospital, nor could we have a funeral.
The consultant told my sister and myself that Mum almost certainly had the virus, which caused us significant panic and anxiety. I live very close to my parents, but my sister lives in the South - we have not as yet been able to get together (the funeral was ‘virtual’, using WhatsApp).
We are all devastated and in shock - almost certainly in a state of post-trauma. This is somewhat complicated in my case by the fact that I have suffered significantly severe periods of depression throughout my life (I was hospitalised several times through my late 20s and early 30s - I’m now 53). Part of the cause was - almost certainly - post-traumatic in nature, in addition to an existing pre-disposition to low mood.
I am now going through the same symptoms, and know enough to understand that these are caused by grief/trauma. I am ‘keeping going’ by basically making myself put one foot in front of the other, practising Mindfulness, going for regular walks and talking to a counsellor on the phone. I’m also trying to distract myself by watching ‘easy’ TV programmes and talking to my mum and my sister as often as possible (I also talk to the cat, though with limited effectiveness!). I live on my own, which is by choice but it does also have its downsides - especially in terms of self motivation.
I suppose my question is: am I doing the ‘right things’? Of course I understand that this is entirely subjective, and ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ are unhelpful labels; maybe I mean do these approaches sound sensible? Please forgive me if this seems like a silly question - I’m afraid I have lost perspective. Also I have never had a bereavement. This is very new and painful.
Any insights/reassurance/whatever gratefully received.
Thanks.