So today im sitting in my livingroom ,tv on and only me and my dog mia, my youngest son is up in bed with a hangover ,maybe im over thinking who knows but im just looking around my home trying to make snese of what had happened since that night on 1st aug i came home and faced my last picture of mark ,today i dont know how i feel , i am mentally and physically drained, iv hung washing on the airer there are other things to be done but have no motivation , i feel weird, i just cant explain what is going on in my head,love to you all and hope your day is passing as well as can be expected during our days, months of this life we know lead.
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Sending you a big hug xx
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Sending you massive hugs one day one minute at a time is all we can do .hugs Jo xxx
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Hi, so sorry to read your story but you have just completely described exactly how im feeling. I thought that i was the only one who had those exact same feelings. Try to take one day at a time and you MUST push yourself because we all have to carry on because our partners would want us to go on living our lives. Please look after yourself. Hugs from me.
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@Miamoo2017 Maybe that’s normal given what’s happened. It was so traumatic and shocking for you. Xx
I’ve been finding it hard to do some of what I did before. I go to work and manage to sleep ok, though I’m going to bed a bit too late and maybe only getting 6 hours some nights, it’s ok, I find it hard to make sure I eat enough, I do eat but less than I likely need and I’ve started smoking out of the blue. Used to smoke only now and then socially but not for over 12 years. Now I’m buying a pack every few days. I find taking care of myself hard. I only do what I have to do.
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Thank uou x
Thank you xx
I am trying although failing to be honest but will keep trying x
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I almost bought cigarettes as it was the first thing i did after johnny died as he had them in his belongings i got back from the hospital this time i just keep vaping all though tempted. Its hard iv just woke up as fell asleep on sofa x
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Sending hugs. A terrible thing for you to face, and still so recent. It’s not surprising that you feel weird.
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Thank you , wish there was a magic tablet that helped you forget x
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So do I darling but above anything I wish wd had the ability to turn back time . Xxx
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Oh my it would be amazing and then we wouldnt all be carrying this pain around x
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It sure would be darling, and i know i would hold him so tight and never let him go,not unless he was taking me with him. Xxx
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Same here i would never leave him on his own id stalk him 24 hours a day ,sending hugs cause we definitely all need some x
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We sure do, The lonilness is a killer. Xxxc
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Looking after yourself is really hard, i get that,
I struggle with my entire life changing in a second, my wife had a sudden out of the blue heart attack which was instant. I sat through paramedics trying but nothing…,all changed in that second
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I understand.
Exactly the same with my husband.
I am so very sorry.
Sending a big hug x
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So sorry for your loss i experienced the same with my husband who passed 7 years ago, he died in front of me snd my yougest son, visions are still as clear today, hugs x
So sorry for your loss.its so hard to get your head round it .Hugs Jo xxx