All of us are going through a seemingly endless, very hard uphill struggle that will get a bit easier as time passes.
This overwhelming despair and sadness will recede somewhat as time passes.
We soldier on and we do function.
But being truly happy as we were when our loved ones were with us is, in my opinion, a thing of the past.
I expect that in a quite distant future my “happyness grade” will be something like “tolerable”.
I also do carry a card with Fanny’s picture in my shirt pocket, close to my heart.
This is a link to the thread I created a few weeks ago: