I’m Joe from Germany, I’m 66 years old.
My beloved wife Fanny passed away in August 2025.
Fanny and me became “One”, our hearts and souls merged forever a very long time ago.
Our love is indescribably deep, it’s hardly possible to find the right words to describe our love.
Fanny is beautiful from the inside and from the outside, she knows exactly what this metaphor means.
Fanny always calls me her guardian angel and her bodyguard and I really love being that.
I still speak of Fanny in the present tense as she is still around me and will always be.
I found something saying
“I haven’t left you, not really.
My spirit is everywhere but especially with you.”
I pray for her every day, asking God to bless her and to convey my strong and everlasting love to her.
I got some tattoos as a permanent memorial to my darling wife.
We always walked hand in hand, her to the right and me to the left.
The tattoo on my right forearm reflects that.
The other tattoo on my left forearm says:
“Fanny 
Joe
Our love
for eternity”
That tattoo is in French because French is Fanny’s second mother tongue as she is the daughter of a French staff officer.
How am I doing so far?
I’m soldiering on, I must not go to pieces,
My Fanny is still with me and I don’t want her to be sad, she’s proud of me, just as I’m proud of her.
I drive around in our beautiful car, driving is like a “therapy” for me.
Fanny and me always liked to go for a “sightseeing ride”, enjoying the scenery and soft music from the radio.
Alternatively I walk around on the cemetery or around our neighborhood.
Whenever I walk around our neighborhood I tell her “Look through my eyes, my darling, my eyes are your eyes. Whatever is mine is also yours.”
I have to manage and I will manage, there is no alternative to that.
The general trend is that the extremely sad days are becoming a bit less frequent and that the “somewhat easier days” are becoming more frequent.
But this trend is not a straight line, it is wavelike.
But occasional setbacks don’t change the fact that the general trend is improving, even though I still do have a very long way to go.
It’s turning out to be a very long, hard and tedious uphill struggle, not without some setbacks.
My remaining years will be more or less okay as the pain will somewhat diminish but the truly good and happy times definitely are a thing of the past.
Whenever God decides that my time is up Fanny and me will be united in everlasting love for all infinite eternity and everything will be fine again.
I’ll just have to be patient and soldier on until that day even though it hurts like hell.
I definitely wouldn’t do anything that could jeopardize our reunion in God’s kingdom.
To each and everyone of us:
Throughout the years, decades and centuries people had to go through this horrible experience and did manage somehow.
In the end, we will manage, too. We have to hang on in there.
Take care and stay safe!
Kind regards - Joe
