Hello
The ‘sadmin’ is just hugely emotional because even seeing my Mum’s name in a letter or email gives me a rush of grief and stress. I’m quite accustomed to completing paperwork, but this is hard going because of the emotional toll. I have some regrets over the speed me and my brother cleared our Mum’s things, but at the time we felt like we couldn’t cope with all of it around us. Plus we needed to get the house on the market. It’s all such a torture, but I try really hard to get on with life as I know my Mum wouldn’t want me to be suffering… Best wishes xx
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Hi
My lovely mum passed away on 13th December 2022. I think about her all the time and lots of tears flow every day. I cannot believe I won’t see her and speak to her again, we were so close. She was fit and well at 85 years and then had a severe brain bleed - no warning. By the time I got to A&E she was unable to communicate. I regret so much not having the chance for a final conversation to say I love you one more time. She was put onto palliative care and died 5 days later. Whether she knew I was there every day, I shall never know. I hope so. I wanted to be with her when she passed but she left us 20 minutes after I’d left the hospital on that final evening. This is so different to my dad’s passing in 1991. I am angry and so sad as if there is a physical blockage inside me. Clearing her house where she had lived for 60+ years and where I grew up and putting it on the market has been so hard. I have so many of her possessions around me and boxes still to sort through. I know I will never be the same again. This has changed who I am.
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Hi Dee15
Same here My mum lived in her house for 55 yrs and I grew up there so its extremely hard putting the house up for sale. We will look back and wonder how we did it. Right now it’s just surviving each day which is hard in itself.
I hope this will get a little better one day
Thinking of you
Deborah x
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