The empty bed
Last thing you see at night
First thing you see in the morning
The place you want run to and hide away from the world in
The place you want to run away from
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That is so true
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Echo that. So true 
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Completely understand, i wish i had a spare room but 3 kids at home still and our 11 year old sometimes wakes in the night and needs to know your there and lays with me till heās settled again.
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When I go home twice since it happened I can feel him when Iām in bed I can almost see, hear, smell and touch him. Itās a blessing and a curse. I love it and Iām scared of it. I was going to home tonight but Iām scared to, he calls to me
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I think I have run away. Iām staying at my sisters for a while and maybe thats what Iām doing. Iāve still got to face the empty house and the empty bed when I go back and Iām dreading it
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My man didnāt live with me the last few years, but I still miss him when I go to bed, when I get in, when he used to get in next to me, complaining about the cold,
And I hadnāt warned his side (his jokes)
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I am so sorry for everyone s losses I know from experience how painful and difficult it is to cope with the loss of a beloved person Do whatever helps you cope in the present but eventually remember you have to face your loss and this is not an easy process But it will eventually pass and you will feel at peace
How, hot does anyone feel at peace
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Please try meditating it helped me a great deal I was with my husband for more than 60 years Blessings
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Some people find peace easier than others, I wish I could but I canāt see me getting there anytime soon. Iām 44 with 3 kids at home itās not easy, getting 60 years together is an amazing gift sending love
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Well I have 4 children including 1 with extra needs who still needs support now We all need to be at peace so we carry on
We all have found ourselves in a situation we didnāt want to be in and everybody deals differently. Iām glad you found peace but others are still not there yet
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Well Grief is an overwhelming experience Bur in the end as the Buddha said Life is suffering and we need to seek the of end of suffering Please try meditation there are plenty of videos and podcasts online to help you Blessings
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I sleep in the back bedroom now. Iāve completely redecorated it, painted it all plain white. Last night I sprayed his aftershave on the pillows and actually managed 7 hours sleep, which is a miracle for me.
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I sleep on the sofa. Did try upstairs for a while, but I find more comfort ( emotionally!!) not physically downstairs on sofa
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I got used to sleeping alone while he was in hospital, and when he came home he had a bed downstairs. But I still miss him terribly and hug his pillow every night.
I donāt think this dreadful feeling of loss and total heartbreak will ever go away.
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Dear @Liro
Yes, thatās why itās easier for me to sleep downstairs, because thatās where my husband slept. For a long time on the sofa, and then on a hospital bed for a couple of weeks before he died.
We had to sell the sofa so there was room for the hospital bed, so itās a different sofa , because I had to buy a new one at lot sooner than I anticipated 
Itās his downstairs duvet I use though . He used to take it to hospital with him too, every time he was admitted.
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Itās been almost 12 weeks and I still canāt sleep in the bedroom. Because it was the room she died in, I found her on the floor, itās still a step too far me so Iām in the spare bedroom. Iāve removed most of the furniture, got new bed, and re-decorated but I canāt seem to remove her āpresenceā. Itās not that I want to remove her, her presence is throughout the whole house after all, itās just because she died there on the floor. When I get the room properly finished I think Iāll need to bite the bullet.
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Early on in our relationship I wrote on a scrap of paper āI love you, Steveā. He kept it next to his side of the bed. Itās still there now, along with his best watch.
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