Hi,I’m the same i don’t know anybody here and have no friends,i see Michelle everywhere in my minds eye.she went to her sisters in Peterborough 21/3/2023,i wasn’t happy but at this point she told me the oncologist said she had 6 months they could do no more,i was replacing the shower,her sister who’s a nurse thought it would be better to go to her house until friday 24th so she could shower and she would give her massage and reiki so l agreed,her sister rang me fri morning to say she had worsened,i drove dawn has fast has possible 2hrs,Michelle put her arms round my neck then died i didn’t get the chance to tell her i loved her the oncologist told her she had 6months but that was in sept 22 in march 23 she told her 2 weeks Michelle kept it from me i wish she hadn’t but i understand why. X
Thank you i hope so x
Crying again!
I agree. We are only hurting because we loved and I wouldn’t swap that for the world.
My puppy did she was a god send ! Xx
I knew every step of my husbands journey and it didnt help ! I was still absolutely devastated he went ! I still am ! I didnt want him to go and i still love him very much xxx
I can’t do that,Michelle wanted three things in life,one to live closer to her sister,two to be mortgage free and three to get a good job as a counselor she got all three she was so good at three all the clients wanted to see her she was non judgemental it all only lasted months and through all this she never complained or cried she kept it all to herself and a week before she died she said 'i am still going to my daughters wedding" which is next year,i cry alot sometimes for myself who has gone but mainly for Michelle’s silent suffering and all the future plans she had and that it took her death to realise how much i loved her and how incredible she was,people came from Blackpool,Harrogate,Burnley,Preston and Scotland for her funeral she was loved by many she even chose the flat that i am buying because she new i couldn’t stay in this house on my own,so her death to me was a massive shock it felt like a heart attack then i had to drive home after they took her away i do not remember that drive but i do remember opening my front door to an empty house and no Michelle,then the grief took over the chest pain and then loneliness came by. Steve x
Thats so lovely 
xx my puppy - now 8 months old is a cockerpoo … lovely temperment and very energetic … she will keep you on your toes for sure xxx
Nicenursenic - I so understand what you are saying. My husband only retired last year after 43 years in the same company. We had so many plans of things we wanted to do and places we wanted to visit. I feel like we were both robbed of our futures because although I still want to do some of these things I’m not ready to do them without him yet! J x
I know its a hard one that isnt it 
all things we wanted to do with them, apart from missing him in every way - holidays especially i find hardest … i loved going on holiday with him - he was such fun to be with and now i nobody to go on holiday with … that hurts … i going with his brother and wife and my nephew next week over bank holiday but is it really gonna be as good as with him ? Nah … but its nice of them to come with me cos u jusr cant face a holiday alone xxx
So lovely reading about the dogs and puppies. I don’t have a pet at the moment but I do regularly walk with a group of friends and their dogs so I get to enjoy some enthusiastic canine welcomes and giving them pats and hugs. Good for the soul xx
Ava3 - Yes having our dog has really kept me going although it’s a big responsibility on your own. My husband took him out more than I did but now it’s up to me. Although he can be left I don’t like to leave him for too long. It was heartbreaking when my husband died as the dog kept looking for him, sitting near the front door for ages. I actually took him to see my husband at the funeral directors and he did seems to settle after that so I think he understood.
@ Nicenursenic @ Jax2 Same for me too. I don’t know if I will ever go on holiday on my own. The fun was in doing it together and sharing new adventures. We only had 6 months of retirement before my husband became ill, so did none of our plans as we thought we had years to do them. I feel so sad that we will never be able to do these things together now. You work all your life and look forward to retirement and then Wham it all evaporates!
Yeh … its totally crap isnt it !!!
I really wants you to stress to others live every day. Don’t put things off as you may not have a tomorrow. So sorry you had so little retirement time together. We retired early and had nearly 20 years of retirement together.
Hi
Yes crap
Paul didn’t get chance to retire
You are so right…….work hard d all your life for what
To get snatched by bloody cancer
Xx
Sometimes it makes you wonder what we work so hard for.
Yeh it does !!
Absolutely and don’t even start me on pensions!!
I agree! I can’t believe that I get no money from my husband’s State pension. All that money he contributed throughout his life - and I receive nothing now. It has all disappeared! Apparently it changed in 2016 but that was kept very quiet!
Thank you. I agree - you want to shout this from the rooftops - but no-one would listen. They don’t think it will happen to them! We did everything right - we ate healthily, my husband was a keen cyclist and would cycle round Dorset for hours and cancer still got him!