I’m sorry that your reading this, because it means you have lost the love of your life too,
I’m 16 weeks into this living nightmare without my best friend and soul mate,
I’ve survived through the stomach renching agony of the first weeks,
I’ve coped with all the mountain of paper work and phone calls,
The lack of a good night’s sleep is now a thing of the past.
The tears still fall, unashamedly, not as many times a day though, so that’s something more positive.
The rollercoster of emotions, not just different each day, but from each hour some days,
I know about, the shock, the denial, the anger, and such, but what I didn’t know was just how numb I could feel, is this normal, why has it come now? I was doing quite well,
I except life will never be the same again, how could it without our partners by our sides, robbed of our future plans,
Can anyone tell me please, have you felt numb, almost in a daze, I find myself staring into space, yet not thinking about a thing, that is not normal for me, I’m usually a very positive person.
Thank you if you read this far,
Hugs Chrissy3