@Sophie8 @Heartbroken1937
I feel the same as you, eventually when I’m in a better frame of mind I would like to volunteer to help others but it would break me too to take someone else shopping.
In tears again, why do I always cry when I’m messaging on here. i cry at some point every day anyway and yesterday was particularly tearful on and off and by the time I got to bed I was proper sobbing. I can’t see me every being any different it just comes over me.
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@Rainbow11 I am the same, I cry daily one way or another. Sometimes gently/quick then I pull myself together, but others it’s like water breaking through a dam. I think it’s healing though, I remember that these tears are different to physical pain ones, so i try to think of it as part of the process. Also better out than in to grieve healthfully. I did not grieve well when my nanna passed so I am trying very hard to do things better this time and not cause more harm.
I am still struggling with some friends though, no one really asks anymore. It’s like I have had a leg cut off, and people think 'well I best not talk about that (very obvious missing leg) in case it’s a ‘reminder’ (in case I had forgotten I have lost my mum)
I think even my husband feels like that a little, it’s so hard. No one I know has lost their mum and it’s so very lonely aside from the help on here where you guys understand.
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@Sophie8
I’m just the same, yes sometimes the tears start then subside but other times just can’t stop them. I do know it’s healthy for me and I do need to let it out I’m that sort of person. I have a handful of good friends who I’m comfortable with and know how I’m struggling and they have stuck with me. Some of them have lost their Mum’s too but not everyone has the same relationships so grief is so personal isn’t it. My husband and my grown up kids are there for me they just hug me as they just don’t know what to say,I don’t really know what they can say. My heart just aches to hug my Mum. I’m crying again! Yes it is helpful to be able to talk on here and know that there are others who feel the same. I think I’d I’d have gone out of my head altogether if I hadn’t realised it’s not just me. I just don’t know when it’s going to feel any different. 
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Hi @Rainbow11,
I think it’s good that you can release your emotions and have a cry.
I have learnt that bottling up feelings certainly doesn’t help!
Some family and friends will understand, others won’t. But I have also met new friends that do understand and provide a shoulder to cry on (literally in a couple of cases!).
Remember you are still in the very early days of your grief journey and your emotions and reactions to events are totally normal.
Take care and remember you are not on your own 
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