I feel like you do. I get up in a morning thinking thats one more day closer to meeting him again. He was my everything my whole world we had so many plans but him upstairs took him to soon. I just want my life to end i carnt seem to find away out of my grief 
i hope you find peice my lovely
I know, we didn’t plan for this to happen, Peter’s life was taken too soon. I saw a spiritualist the other day who told me things only Peter would know. I took comfort in the fact he said i couldnt get rid of him, he would always be with me. But, along with the comfort came the pain of knowing I couldnt hold him, give him a kiss, stroke his face. Ive just booked to see a grief Councillor because I now realise I’m not strong enough to do this on my own. That strong woman died with my husband. So Joanne my love, neither the spiritulist or the counciĺor may appeal to you, but something will turn up, a way to help you through this minefield and the days ahead. You always have this chat group and thats a good start. Stay strong my love x
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Thinking of you All, grief seems to be the biggest issue of all. I know it is said, the price we pay for love". Why on earth as humans can’t we be hot wired’ differently. The pain of it all. It is my beloved Pete’s birthday today, our first apart. I have written a card for him and have a single red rose. Next week I lay him to rest. Everything a first’ with Christmas looming as well.
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I’m going to see a spiritualist soon with my friends from work. I think I also bit like yourself.Need to book in to see a grief.Counsellor cause like you.I don’t think I can do this on my own. Even just thinking about him makes me cry.I have his picture on his table with his Ashes which i speak to every day.But it’s not the same like you.I can’t stroke his face.Give him a kiss.Give my hug just a normal things that we used to do has a couple. I hope you find peice one day my love. Take care.
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Maybe grief is one of the prices we may be called upon for loving & being loved?
I am broken, but even if I knew this was the end, which I did for 13 years, I would choose to love Sarah again.
There were not enough of them, but they were the best years of my life. I would rather have had them with her than not to have been with her at all.
That said, I was older than her. It should have been me. I wish it had been me.
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Joanne I went to my local Spiritualist Church one night when I was absolutely desperate. The people there were so kind and welcoming. It was like stepping in to a warm bath.
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There is no way ‘out’ of grief. Not sure if this will help but there is a great book by Megan Devine called ‘It’s OK that you’re not OK’. Her approach is one of not trying to fix or cure grief but of integrating it into life. No obligation to look at this. Just sharing something that helped me. It can feel so debilitating and life is forever changed. I understand that x x
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I’ve also read this book and found it really helpful. It doesn’t take the grief away but helped me understand that what I’m feeling is ‘normal’ and ok.
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Hugs. These firsts are tough. x x
Thank you where do i get the book from please.
Amazon is the best place. I have mine in Kindle format x x hugs xx
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I find Megan Devine’s YouTube video’s on grief and grieving very helpful.
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I have just ordered it. Many thanks. My Christmas read xx
She’s also on Instagram
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