Hi @Noo, I’m so sorry to hear that you have just lost your mum to suspected Covid 19. Your grief is so recent and raw, and it is completely normal to be not coping and to feel that your emotions are all over the place. The fact that the loss is part of this ongoing crisis, and that social distancing will affect the funeral will be added factors that can make things even harder.
It’s really important to have some support and outlets for your feelings, so I’m really glad that you’e found this site. All of our users have been bereaved and will understand some of what you are going through. As well as replying to conversations started by others, when you feel ready, you may find it helpful to start a new conversation in the Losing a Parent category, to find others who have lost their mum or dad.
For example, a user called @Struggling lost their dad very recently and is also facing restrictions on the funeral due to the lockdown: How do I get through this
Cruse Bereavement have some online resources about Coronavirus and grief, which you might find helpful: https://www.cruse.org.uk/get-help/coronavirus-dealing-bereavement-and-grief