I hope someone can help. My mumpassed quite recently and she wasnt the nicest person to be around and i feel like i wasted so much time trying to please her. I want to be okay that she’s gone but im just so angry that she wasnt the parent i needed.
Sorry for your loss, I know I’m a stranger and know nothing about your life but from that little bit I’ve read, it’s not your fault how your mam behaved, you can’t make someone do or be something they’re not willing to change or be themselves, you didn’t waste time, you just tried to do what you could, do
You think a councillor might help? I’m on the waiting list for one, I’m
Expecting miracles from this person and
Want to come out walking on sunshine but I know it’s going to take time! Don’t be hard on yourself, 
easy for me to say! 
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i know where you are coming from, i was adopted and my mother died 20 yrs ago but i am still angry at why she hated me so much. the novelty wore off when i became 5 and i could tell stories of some of the thing s she did (not violent or anythig just the way she treated me) my dad was lovely. i found out i wasnt the baby she wanted, it was her brothers son she wanted and her life even up to she died was always him, she even left everything to him. according to her i was nothing to do with her and i didnt find out she was dead till 3 months later. but things she did has affected me all my life
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Hello. Hope you’re okay. I can relate. My mum passed away 4 days ago and we didn’t speak or have any contact for 15 months. We didn’t have the best relationship, unfortunately my mum was a narcissist. I wasn’t told she was in hospital as it was her wish that I didn’t know. I am holding a lot guilt right now. I’m here if you need to talk more x
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As my brother didnt step up at all in rhe last few weeks I had to be there as dad didnt want her to die alone!! She was 100 narcissistic and its so hard. I have my first talking therapy tonight. I am desperately hoping they can give me some clarity of thought!!
I hope the therapy goes well. I’m going to the doctors tomorrow. I’m really struggling
I really hope you get support from them, its so hard trying to find space to grieve the loss os something you didnt want in the first place
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i didnt know mine was in hospital, she told everyone she didnt have a daughter even her solicitor. the last time we spoke, 4 yrs before she died, she went on at me about something i did at school when i was 7, saying i was always trouble. i never did anything, i am 68 and never been in toruble with anyone. but nothing was good enough for her. even things i bought her for xmas, she would give to neighbour telling ehr to take them to charity shop, unwrapped that some stranger had given her.
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I am so so sorry. That is truly awful. Hope you get the support you need on here. Please message me if you want to x
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which one were you talking to xx
Every single gift i gave to mine was either unused and left to expire (experience vouchers) or given away for raffle prizes for the dog charity she left everything to when she died! I gave up eventually and just bought flowers. She ‘forgot’ family birthdays but god forbid you forgot hers!!
Both of you x
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