Hi i have just joined this group and am looking to chat with others who too have lost a partner to suicide or have lost a partner to something else. Im hoping that there is someone in the community that can help to deal with yet another loss.
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Hello, I’m so sorry for your losses. I hope you find comfort in this group. I’m sure there are others who have experienced loss in this way. I think suicide must be one of the hardest ways you can lose someone. My ex partner died suddenly at the age of 46, due to alcohol dependency. We were still in contact and I hoped he might get well, I even hoped we could get back together. The shock and pain of it is unbearable. Getting through each day is all that’s possible at the moment. Take care of yourself the best you can. I wish you all the best 
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Im sorry for your loss, my emotions are driving me crazy, i go from crying all the time to being angry then i think he is just went out, my head is fit for bursting.
Hi sorry for your loss
I lost my wife recently, and whilst this was not suicide any loss is a tragedy with the same result they are now gone.
We who are left are left with pain and sorrow and emptiness and in time we will learn to live wit it I hope anyway.
Glad you joined I am sure people on here will be able to offer some help.
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I am sorry for you loss i lost my husband just over 7 weks ago not to sucide, but from heart failure. It is such a painful 
journey. But i live in hope one day it wont hurt as much. Here if you want to chat. Sending you hugs Jo xxx
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It might be worth getting some counselling, when someone close dies unexpectedly especially to suicide you are left with so many unanswered questions and what if’s. There can be a lot of guilt and anger as you say xx
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This is the 2nd time as my husband dropped down dead in front of me and my youngest son 7 years ago and now finding my partner the way i did on thursday night. Think i may have to look in to something but i know as soon as i begin to talk about it i end up aa blubbering mess and feel like il.never stop. I so appreciate you talking with me it means alot so thank you so much x
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Hi thank you for replying, i lost my husband 7 years ago to a sudden death he was only 44 and 7 years younger than me and took me along time to deal with him not being here. I met my partner who changed my world and.now he is gone. My head is fried and wont switch off. I am so sorry for your loss, how are you coping.
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I am so sorry for your loss, this pain we are left with is unbearable. I didnt think that when i went to work on thursday that when i kissed and said goodbye to my partner that i would never see him again.
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Hi Miami,
So sorry for your loss, and taking their own life. For me I have been widowed twice and my partner passed away in January. I now suffer with physical anxiety when I wake in the morning. My thoughts are with you
Hi i am so sorry for your loss too it is devastating to go through not once but twice. I knew one day it would happen as it will to us all but nit the way he did it, myself and family and also my partners family just dont understand and never will until i meet him again one day. Im glad i found this site to talk to people .
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Its beyond awful words fail me when i try and explain to ppl how i feel lost lonely fightened bewildered , in extreme pain I feel as if I could suffocate from the anguish. I suffer from agrophobia and panic attacks and omg they are off the scale. Days are lonely nights are the longest. I feel for us all its not a place anyone of us would choose. I take 1 minute 1hour 1 day at a time. I dont know what the future holds for me like us all. My hope is one day this pain is more bearable. Hugs jo xxx
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Such true words, i just got off the phone from gp as i had asked for something to help me and was told it is early days and they will give me just a few diazepam and to contact them next week, i had the same last time and they did nothing, then got sertraline that did nothing then mitrazipine which ended up making me late for work so i stopped. I had hoped they had a magic pill but sadly not. Do you have family around you to support you.
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I do have family have they been supportive no, i have been told this is my nee life something I have to getbuse too. Doctors are useless called them a few times like yourself told there is nothing that will really help just gotta ride through it but its hard. Xxc
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Sorry to say but that is heartless and hope they dont have to experience like you are dealing with at present as for gp well seemingly they no best and we dont , its all about talking ,talking and talking, that makes me worse and doesnt help what my bodys feeling and my mental health.
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Precisely all they offer is talking therPy that no hep at all . Like you I hope one day they will understand how hard this road is . X
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Exactly, we know tablets are not the answer but they have them to help with various health issues so why cant they just help us, i was told phone back in a week lets see how your doing,really,you think walking in to find my partner dead is going to feel better in another week.
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I can’t imagine what you must be going through, having found your partner like that, it’s absolutely horrendous. I’m so sorry.
If you’re not able to talk about it yet, that’s ok, it’s so traumatic and it’s just happened. It’s good you’re here though.
I’m finding it hard, I can just do the things I have to do, not a lot else. For me, talking helps. I’m getting bereavement counselling, I’ve talked with my parents a lot about it and I’ve called the Samaratins a few times. It really is just about getting through each day. X
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I am sorry you’re dealing with loss. How do you feel the counselling is going.
I like my counsellor and it’s going well but I feel like it’s too big for a one hour session, once a week. There’s so much to unpack. I might see if we can do a 90 minute session but otherwise I’m glad it’s there for me.