I loss my husband 6 weeks ago very quickly to Cancer and am totally lost.
I don’t want to go on but everyone tells me I have to, their telling me I’m so strong yet inside I’m broke and don’t want this life to go on.
I put on a front to avoid their discomfort and that is the ones that don’t avoid me, I am so lonely yet they make me feel worse by avoiding me, They don’t like this person who cries, who looks sad, I don’t like this person.
I come into an empty house, no longer a home and the loss hit me every time, his shoes still behind the door, his clothes in the wardrobe, no mess to clean, no dinner to cook, no washing to do, The jobs i moaned about no longer there to do, I want them back, I want him back,
They tell me it’ll get better, what is better?
A life without my best friend, not a life I want.