I am sitting in the car been in tesco. Going home now xxxx
It’s gone cloudy here now, but at least I felt up to cutting the grass xx
Sun is stil. Shining not as bright i am having a sleep xx
I sorry you are so down, I too have gone downhill again after visiting the medium on Wednesday, I didn’t say anything until she finished that he passed away.
I wish he was here, I really could do with one of his hugs.
Today is 23 weeks he broke my heart.
Love and hugs to you
xxx
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I am awake now i needed that
Hi AliiH,
This is my first post, I just joined. I’m having such a difficult time. It’s been just under my husband passed away from infections related to cancer, he was sick 10 years so I thought I’d be prepared. At first I felt relieved. Now, after all the services, burials, financial settlements are done, I am completely undone. i’m supposed to take two trips this month but am so anxious about traveling even though it’s my life’s dream. I just cry and miss him so much.
So sorry to hear about your loss, we are here to help. All the people on hear are friendly. I know what you are going through .i lost my wife September. I miss. her so much .if you ever want to come on a friendly person will talk to you x.
@swaring123 I am so sorry for your loss and that you find yourself here.
10 years is such a long time for you both dealing with what you’ve had to deal with and now he has sadly passed away I imagine you are still coming to terms with all that has happened and to a degree are in some form of shock. My husband too had a blood infection, the day before he passed the doctors said he was recovering and the next day his blood pressure dropped and the nightmare started, less than 24 hours later he was gone, aged 56.
You are very early on in this journey and only you know whether you are up to the two events planned, you must do what you feel is right and everyone will understand. The most important thing at this point is that you look after yourself. Grieving is physically exhausting so sleep when you can and make sure you eat (even though you may not feel like it) and drink plenty of water. I became dehydrated from all the crying I imagine and felt awful.
There are so many wonderful people on this forum so please reach out whenever you need to, remember you are not alone, we are here for you x
Hello Poppet, sorry you have gone downhill, it’s a shame about the reading, I hoped it would bring you some comfort.
It’s the realisation that Mark isn’t coming back that has hit me, I didn’t want to carry on. Usually I keep busy and it helps, but the past two days, I was consumed with grief, to the extent that I felt I was suffocating.
Today I have felt well enough to cut the side grass, but that’s all I have done.
Sending you my love
So sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad.
We all understand, many of us are struggling daily just to go on.
I send you my love xx
@AlliH
So sorry for you losing your husband.
We all know in here what it’s like. In fact it’s dreadful. I’m 8 weeks in
I know what you mean about going away. Around 4 weeks after John passed my youngest son ( John isn’t his dad )said why don’t you come on our summer holiday and as his mum in law is going I thought yes I’ll go and helped picked the place etc and felt fine.
Now I’m not sure because suddenly I struggle in my head thinking I might ruin their holiday by being upset and I know I can wander off but what I thought was a good idea might not be.
I will go, because even though I’m a fit 71 year old, my Johns mantra was Carpe Diem, he passed at the age of 72 suddenly so who knows what’s round that bloody corner.
I might not be able to next year so I want to swim with my granddaughter n let her teach me to put my head under.
Meantime some days I think I’ll go out then I don’t, I never know how I’m going to be.
I’m sure we’re all like that.
You try and see with your first break away and if you can’t manage the second one then don’t go
You have to please and be kind to yourself now.
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My god the sun is still shining here nice day .just sitting here all on my own ,missing my mrs even more today. Xxx
Life is so shitty when you lose your or husband ,i just miss my wife it is unreal when is this nightmare going end this bad dream if only . No phone calls no text, nothing all on my own ,so days i can’t cope,and one is today .if drank i would go and get drunk .but i do not drink .boring life style. Xxx
It is hard to cope, we loved our partners so much, life without them is empty, and miserable.
I hope one of your relations comes to visit you, maybe they will.
Sending hugs xxx
No way they do not care about me .i am alrignt by that .we had no kids .great marriage. Just one of those things xxx. I am ok just bored xxx
I am not in the mood to eat a big meal ,got lots of food in the house .could not be bothered cooking .
Yes, I hear you, if I had my way I would have joined him sooner but we dont believe in taking our own life and he wouldn’t be happy with me, also I have to keep the promise of finishing the complaint to the hospital.
These past few weeks I have been missing him more and more and just want him back with me.
Its bloody unfair as he could have had a chance, it makes me so angry.
xxx
Life is always un fair ,life is like a box of chocolates.
You do not know what is around the next corner .today i have had no phone calls, no text .nothing. horrible life is like a piece shit according to montyphyon. Xxx
Hope you are ok, this is the hardest thing.
I am ok i think .just bored. No phone calls.no text nothing