Like many of us it’s really really hard. I am just putting one foot forward at a time day by day . Trying to come to terms with it and helping my kids and grandkids to get through too. So sorry for you .
Not bad not good
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Life is not easy at the moment. In fact is hard .good days bad days .more bad days than good ones
Thank you i just wish i had someone
That is it ljfe on my own is horrible seen no-one for 4 days
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@Love01
So sorry for your loss.
My darling John passed suddenly in March this year. I can honestly say I’d never felt pain and sadness and emptiness in my life for the first 10 weeks. I cried loudly and it was gut wrenching and I felt ill, couldn’t sleep or eat. I couldn’t stop crying n thinking and the memories just made me feel worse.
I then decided to keep just one picture on display of him and I stopped wearing his t shirt I even stopped having my morning milky coffee at 9am cause that’s what John brought back to bed every morning to me…I just felt it wasn’t helping me.
I think of him as soon as I wake up and last thing going to bed and at least every hour during the day but I don’t sob anymore I can control the tears.
It has got easier and I think of the future now with some hope but I’ve a very supportive family and close knit group of friends so I am very fortunate.
I’ve even started going to church even though I’m not what I would call a Christian but I enjoy it and it’s a very different church…it’s extremely friendly and welcoming and jolly…
It will get easier for you, keep posting on here and then in time you’ll find you’re not coming on here as often and I think that’s when we are starting our long journey to being able to live alongside our grief…but we have this forum for our bad days which we will always have just not as often…
So sorry for the loss
Love, Rejoice in those memories and think how lucky you have been to have such a wonderful time you had with your wife.
How are you doing?
I’m on my way to collect my wife’s ashes. Been close to tears all the way to the funeral directors, so the sunglasses have come in handy.
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I am so sorry. Sending you a big hug.
Cheers Cat, it’s hard to except that my lovely, vibrant partner now fits in a fucking pot. Having a really hard time getting my head around it, sorry for the language
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Can you not pick a different urn?
That’s not the issue. It’s the fact she’s in there at all, could give a monkeys what the pot/urn looks like.
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I know what you mean it is a shock.
I agree picked my husbands ashes up bought a beautiful teardrop but it’s just a pot to me can’t talk to him in it should be here in body I find photos on the mantlepiece are more comfort hate it now his ashes are here strange when we used to talk about me talking to him everyday when home it is totally different
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Have you got any support!
@Siggs
I know how much it hurts picking up our loved one ashes and the final thing we have to do for them…Bloody awful though and just terribly sad they’re not still here with us…
For me personally I still feel John is with me. The ashes are still him…
We all think differently though.
I’ve taken some ashes out for him to go with me when it’s my turn and the rest will be scattered in his beloved Ribchester when his son gets time to be there…
He’s too busy sorting the will n money…that unfortunately is more important to him than his dads remains…He hasn’t actually asked where they are yet and I’ve had them since beginning of April…
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Mitzi1
So sorry that must be so hard for you. It’s even harder when family members don’t seem to really care.
My older brother was like that when our dad died. Fortunately I had a younger brother who cared and helped me support mum for 13 years after dad died. Unfortunately he died at 59, then my mum and then my precious husband 22 months ago. They are all buried close to one another which is some comfort but I wish they were all here with me.
Nothing can prepare us for these traumatic happenings.
Take care and hope you have some support.
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Totally agree, I have a lovely picture of Karen mounted in glass that I was given for my upcoming birthday on Friday which I find much more comforting
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