Yes I know how you feel mate I miss Sammy so much x
Yes, our hearts 
will never heal properly because that love is missing forever x 
I can’t sleep at night and in the morning I just want to stay in bed. I am thinking of going back to work in April but how am I going to get up in the morning, I just don’t know.
@Spooner it is unreal .still can not believe all on. All on my own i see no-one for weeks xx
I haven’t worked for over four years, i had to retire to become my wife’s full time carer and haven’t worked since, don’t really think I’ve got it in me to get back into work even if i had a job to go to .
What future. I future on my own .
I was caring for my partner since October last year.
I have to go back to work at some point. I am only 40 so can’t stop working. At the moment I still have a job but I just don’t feel ready. Everyone keeps telling me to go back but how can I concentrate?
We were always calling and texting each other. Xx
I am so lost just miss my maria. Xxx
i feel totally lost and that there’s no point in life without him. i have grown up children and a grand child but im not finding joy in life and feel a burden to them all i do is cry . Does it ever get any easier the pain is unbearable. Really struggling today
I took voluntary redundancy about 14 years ago , after two years my wife said to me you need to get out , get yourself a little job , i think i was probably getting under her feet , so i got a little part time job, i had that for 9 nine years before having to give it up , she had motor neurone disease and knew she was terminal, she was always saying to me , when I’ve gone find yourself something to do ,see you old boss and see if you can go back to work don’t stay in you need to get out and about, even though she was going through hell she was always thinking of me, it would be good to find something to do, but don’t think i could go back to work 
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Sad little story that sorry.
Im like you, I have grown up children and a grandson, but without mark, I can’t see a future without him.
We had so many plans and dreams for the future, 2 years ago he retired from the army after 24 years and was looking forward to spending his retirement with me, we had bought our forever home and looked to the future, we were planning to go to America but all thats gone and our forever home is now just a house
I gave up work a week before marks funeral, I told my boss it would be better if I hand in my notice as I didn’t know how long or I was ready to go back.
I need to sort my head out
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Your not on your own mate we are all here for you x
I totally understand what you mean . It’s the plans we had growing old together .The house is not a home anymore. We just exist now that’s how i feel. I just can’t wait until i’m with him again. My kids say i need to keep going for them but they have their own life’s . It’s so lonely without him especially at night cuddling in going to sleep
Just sitting on my bum. Missing my maria. Xx
The tv. Is crap
At the moment I feel like taking a break for a very long time. Time is flying by so quickly and I don’t think counting days helps to be honest.
I am sitting here crying and there is no meaning for anything anymore x
I’ve just been lying here thinking about Sammy I’ve had a bit of a cry missing her so much 
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My daughter said exactly the same thing, but they have their own lives now, moved out years ago.
It was just me and their dad for the past 4 years.
We did everything together, I never thought I would lose him
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Not very nice at at all .with being a little sick still does not help xx