My beautiful son died suddenly 8 weeks ago. He collapsed outside his house. James was 31. I dont know if it instant, im haunted that he died waiting for me to help him. I didnt and he died alone.
The pain and anger are unrelenting, i cant escape them.
I feel cheated out of a life with James and dont feel strong enough to walk this path of grief.
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so sorry to hear this must be terrible for you. you dont say what he died of, if it was an anurysm or fatal heart attack it would have been instant, he would have known nothing. you have done nothing wrong hugs
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I am still waiting for a cause of death but knowing he died alone outside haunts me.
The pain is relentless, it follows me as a constant reminder of what i have lost. The emotions hit me unexpectedly. Sadness, denial, guilt and anger, they make no exceptions.
Im angry and terrified that this is now my story. It feels too long and lonely.