My mother passed away in May. She was all I had in life ( no family of my own or friends) i miss her terribly, not only was she my mother who I lived with for the last 15 years, she was also the only person who I could talk too, be myself around and who genuinely cared. Today is my first birthday without her and it will be my first xmas all alone, Today is really hard waking up and not hearing her say happy birthday is painful. No one asks me how im coping and siblings have clearly shown that they just don’t care. They all have someone in there lives ( I don’t) i dont expect i will receive any birthday messages today. Sorry to ask this but can someone please say happy birthday to me coz I just think I need to hear hear it im feeling very hopeless again today and am dreading xmas day.
I just cant stop crying and need to express how im feeling.
When my mother passed away i posted on this site and found people’s support very helpful, I had left but im not and those feelings of lonliness and hopeless have been creeping in again and today is very hard for me
Firstly, I was very sad to read of the loss of your beloved Mother and how you are feeling today, your birthday.
I have been part of this community for some years now, sometimes reading more than posting, but when something comes along to intensify my feelings of sadness, despair or hopelessness, I come here to reach out, just as you have done today.
Whilst I know that today will be far from a celebratory birthday, I send my kind wishes to you so that minute by minute, hour by hour you will get through today with your Mother’s love for you, tucked up safely in your heart.
Let us know how you are doing, there’s plenty of helping hands here ready to reach out and to listen to your thoughts & feelings. xxx
Happy Birthday. Your Mum will be looking down on you and sending all her love, because you are her daughter and she loves you very much.
Take small steps to get through the day and remember there are people in this community who know what you’re going through and will offer their support.
Happy Birthday, I know it’s not the same as coming from your mum. I lost my partner 3 months ago and I’m dreading Christmas even though it’s with family. Could you not reach out to your siblings, let them know how you’re feeling, even for some company over the Christmas period? I hope you find peace
I had reached out to family a few months after my mother had passed away and was rejected time after time with excuse after excuse. I was always contious of their grieving and never wanted to be a burden so I keep it to the bare minimum ( ie can I call for a hours company?) I was my Mothers part time Carer and still live in her house which she left me… my heart is absolutely broken. I could never reach out again after that as the constant rejection makes me feel terrible. Siblings know I have no one and that life has completely changed. I will never understand how people can be so cruel and cold, if it was one of my siblings in my lonly state then best believe i would care.
Im really trying.. went for a walk and sat in the church lit a candle for my mother but I just cant stop crying. I’ve been let down again today. Everytime im let down the realisation hits me that I have no one.. its just me now and it cuts deep. I know I sound like im feeling sorry for myself here but this sucks.. calling and hoping for my mother to give me a sign. I miss her so much and her birthday card today.
I am glad you managed to get out in the fresh air for your walk . And got to church to light your candle. Take one day at a time , I hope you find some peace
Thank you Rainbow for thinking of me this morning, it means more then you know! For a stranger to reach out and hope that i find some kindness today is the kindness you have given me this morning. You seem like a truly caring person and your beloved husband was lucky to have you in his life X
I appreciate you saying that this Sunday morning. Our community is full of people who have never met but who are there side by side, holding hands, through the darkest of days
Not having been a church attender for several years, I feel compelled to go regularly to light a candle, just because I don’t know who to turn to for some spiritual comfort, but I invariably start sobbing in some corner, feeling utterly miserable and imploring almighty God to send me a sign or come back into me to stop me feeling so awfully wretched. Going through hell but how long until I get to a heaven, who knows…………
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