I have been thinking a lot
There are so many stages in our lives where we find our selves surprised and wondering why no one talks about it
No one talks how motherhood is such hard work, no one talks how breastfeeding can be so difficult, no one talks how hurtful can be to deal with teenage Kids changing moods. Most of the time it seems that everyone else finds life easier than you do
I imagined that loosing a husband was difficult and painful but I never guessed it was as devastating as it is. I never knew the void it has created in my life and how I felt/feel that the woman I was died when Jack did. I never knew how that even small things in life would become so meaningless without my beloved
We all talk how me miss our husbands , how strange life is without them. But no talks about how the physical presence we miss
I miss so much having his hand in my shoulder. I miss the feel of his hand on mine. I miss been kissed and and his warmth close to me.
I miss feeling safe and secure, I miss the way my whole body felt when Jack was close to me . Sometimes I close my eyes and try to recall that feeling of been embraced …
How I miss my Jack -