What I have learnt in my 4 weeks not loss it makes no different if it’s 4 weeks, 4 months, 2 years or longer. Grief and loss still hurts. Just over time some coping has started. But it still hurts like hell
So glad you’ve felt a little joy. A cat will be lovely , you won’t be so alone and can talk to your Ally and have her snuggled up with you, will you let her into the bed? We always did , all that warmth and purring .Wish I could tell you when it stops hurting like hell though.x
We always shared everything including the bills. I’m going through them now and for the first time. Without her. This pain just don’t stop
I think that makes us feel we’re all on our own now, no one to share everything, no hand to hold. .Such a struggle dealing with stuff alone, Malcolmdid all our banking online and I didn’t even know the password and couldn’t find it. So many things we want to ask them, and tell them then we remember we can’t.x
It just rips my heart out every night. Then I watch her stop breathing. Just do hard. The only person I would hold and hold me in bad times has gone. Just makes it worse
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What also got be today was we was there for each other. I’m in a personal way. If I had a question or wanted something checked for opinion on my body. She was the only one I would ask. Who the hell to I ask now. The GP killed my wife so I’m stuck.
I know I can’t make it better for you but I understand the agony you’re going through. No one there to hug you, hold you tight, tell you they love you, make you warm when your feet are cold in bed,put a cover over you if you’rr cold on the disfavour. All those little loving gestures that we were so used to. I so miss his arms around me and wish I could feel his presence just once x
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That’s so awful for you, having that issue with the G P and very hard to come to terms with. It’s bound to make you feel bitter and we know how bad that is for our mental and physical health but how can you not be, I don’t know. Have you written it all down, sometimes that can ease pain a bit.Can you pursue it or don’t you feel able at the moment? Keep thinking of your lovely Ally cat .
I’ve put complaints in to GP about miss diagnosis and hospital about inhumane care. Got solicitors looking into taking on case. Waiting for their response
Glad you’re feeling strong enough to fight for your Allison, fighting spirit will keep you going x