Good Morning Everyone.
Bit chilly this morning but not raining yet..
Yesterday had lunch with Johns niece and then walked in Johns favourite place Ribchester down by the river where we scattered his ashes We threw some red roses in n had a few tears but we mainly laughed and reminisced.
Feel very sad today but need to do things so hopefully the sadness will lift.
Have a good day as best you can..
Good morning everyone I am really really struggling I just cant stop thinking about my beautiful wife I just don’t know what my path is anymore I kept my wife save and we loved each other so much I talk to her every day but why can’t I dream about her I am really really low I just cant stop crying I just want to be with her
Don’t worry we are all the same. I’ve been really bad these last few days. I’m trying to remember his voice, been sorting out his clothes as I know he’d want me to do that. He wasn’t sentimental in the least, but of course I’m going to keep a lot. I too can’t see a way forward and a life without my special soulmate Ray. He was my whole life, I lived for him.
That’s true, we are all the same. I don’t even remember how much I cried yesterday. I watched some Christmas movies yesterday. We used to watch them together, but nothing makes sense anymore.
I just cant do anything I can’t and won’t touch anything off my wifes things she still belongs in our forever home with me till the day I pass
And this is absolutely ok, do what you think is right for you. I don’t have many of my partner’s clothes left, but I keep his phone and watch on his bedside table. It was his home and always will be.
The days will get better, it just takes time.
Ive kept a few things that mean something to me of Robs but his clothes i donated yo a homeless charity as I know they will make good use of the items. I sold alot of hos fishing tackle as no use to me and seemed wrong to just leave it in a shed, the funds have bought me a ring with our birthstones snd enough to get flowers for the house each month for about 2 years.
I was lucky in one way we spoke about my life once he was gone and how I was to move forward and do lots of new things, no sitting wishing for something I can’t have any longer.
Life has dealt us all a hand we never wanted but we are still here and should be thankful we had our loved ones in our lives no matter how long or short that was as they taught us how to love laugh and cry but also how to be happy and live.
Love01
Thats exactly how i feel too.I cant touch anything of my dear wifes like her clothes, even her books,everything i see brings sadness to me,it was my dear wifes home.She loved her home and garden.I so hope you have a peaceful christmas, i wont use the words “good” or “merry” keep talking to your dear wife, i do that to mine all the time.try to remember the good times, i try but mostly the sadness takes over as we cant make any more happy memories.It will be so hard for so many of us this time of year,many of us facing our first christmas without our dear loved ones.Look after yourself that is so important.Take care.
Nightwish1
I hope you have a peaceful christmas, i am reluctant to use words like “Happy/merry as they certainly wont be that for myself and so many of us on here.I just hope and wish you find peace this christmas time and try and remember happy times with your dear Sue.I will be thinking of you and everyone on here too over the christmas period, i will still hopefully be posting except when i go to see my dear wifes sister.It will be so difficult and sad for us.Look after yourself that is so important.Take care.
Johnr
I hope you have a peaceful christmas.I hope all goes well with your move to your new house.Being close to your dear Jackie will i hope bring you much comfort.Thank you for your posts , i always look forward to reading them they always give me cofort and support and the lovely flowers too.Take care.
Thank you so much brummy.
Like many of us, I will be alone. I hope you find some peace as well. Have a peaceful Christmas. I’m glad you are seeing your lasses sister, I hope it brings a smile as well as tears, try and remember a funny story, to tell each other.
Sue, has got me a book for Christmas, she always got me his books.
Take care and look after yourself.
Nightwish1
I will be going to see my dear wifes sister on christmas eve just for a few hours probably as ive developed a sore throat, so i will go with a mask on so i can hopefully not give her anything , i would never forgive myself if i did.unfortuatly she is disabled after a bleed on the brain and her mental state is not too good, it was a good idea to try and remember a funny story to tell each other.I too will be alone after getting back as you say like many of us.It will take me 2 buses to get to her but its worth it as i want to do it for my dear wife, even for just a short time.
I hope you enjoy the book.
Take care.
Goodnight John and everyone
Early start tomorrow. Driving up to Oban for Christmas. 
I Love oban. So nice to sit and watch the ferries come and go
My darling husband died suddenly 3 weeks ago and while all the preparations for Christmas are going on around me I’m sorting out his funeral service which has been delayed due to post mortem and is in January. Yesterday I collected his wedding ring from funeral director. It broke my heart. I’ve been up since 2:50am and don’t know what to do with myself so I’ve come on here for some comfort. Bless everyone who’s going through this and thank you for reading my post. I’m so sad 
I hope you have family/friends around you for support. It feels so very lonely especially in the early days.
Sending you a virtual 
Cathymb, my heart goes out to you, it really does. That feeling of absolute despair. My husband died in April, here at home. He’d been ill for a while, but nothing prepares us for the actual ‘passing’, even though we know it’s going to happen. We’d been together for 55 years to the actual day. The rawness, the frantic crying, the disbelief…..it’s all there, and I’m sure everyone on this site will have known it. Please keep reading the posts. I read more than post but it does give me such comfort that I’m not alone in how I feel. No-one else can understand if they haven’t been through it, and we wouldn’t wish it on anyone. xx
So very sorry.
We understand and are here for you.
Sending hugs
