Thank you so much I am trying my best but it is still really hard
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It is very hard. It will be 2yrs for me 18th of this month and I sobbed last night as Im entering another year without my absolute world but I will get through it as andrew would want me to.
We can only keep trying and making it work the best we can
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That’s a lovely way to look at life, I agree with your beliefs xx
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I try Astral travelling, it’s difficult, but possible.
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You’ve posted such a courageous and loving response. I am so grateful to be on this Sue Ryder site and get such strength from you all. I’m so pleased/sad to read your responses to the death of very loved ones, your worlds. I’m so sad for you and so comforted for me.
My husband died on February 1 this year and I am still utterly miserable and sad. I knew he had to go and my daughter and I saw him through the last week, at home, in his own bed, with him telling people he wanted to go. He had a rare lung disease which could only get worse. But my son and I thought he would last another month or so, but that timing didn’t matter. It’s his loss that matters . I can’t write this without crying.
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I would really love to hear from her I know that can’t happen but I cry constantly just wishing she was hear it has been 33 weeks ome this Saturday since I lost her so suddenly it is still so raw to me and the trumma is so hard to deal with I just want her to know how much I love her and miss her dreadfully I still keep everything at home so close to me all her things that she last had on that day her jewellery I sleep on her side off the bed with her ashes beside me on her bedside table I don’t have any friends or family to help I am trying my best to try get through a day I just love her and miss her so much I lost her with a pulmonary embolism while we where away for wedding anniversary
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I am so so sorry for you and your lost love. It is not understandable when someone just goes - and someone who was loved so much. If you like, you can ring or talk to me and I’ll be your family, though I can’t be proper family.
Caroline
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Andy63, thank you very much, Your text gives me courage. Caroline
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Love 01, I’m sorry it’s so hard. It is very hard for me too after 58 years of HAPPY marriage.
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Been packing all day, with help from a little helper 
Anyway good night all. Sleep well and take care tomorrow
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Aww thank you so much I do need friends it was allways just my wife and I we where so happy in our own wee bubble I am really really struggling
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Nightwish1
I hope you are ok?thank you so much for the candle.The church looks lovely.i so hope the coming year will bring you some peace and comfort.Take care.
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Love01
I so hope the coming year will bring you some peace and comfort.This time of year has been so hard for us, especially those like ourselves who have been alone.Keep posting on here, we all understand how you feel.Im very similar to you, i really struggle being alone.There are so many worries and responsibilities.I miss my loving caring wife so much.I like to think they are with us in spirit but i really want to be with her physically but know it cannot be.Look after yourself.
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Daisy24
I hope you are ok?thank you for that lovely post.i like to think our dear loved ones are with us too.Its only that thought that keeps me going to be honest.Sometimes we can get “signs” too that they are with us, we just have to be open to them.I hope the coming year will bring you some peace and comfort.Take care.
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Reply to brummy ( and anyone else interested), thank you so much. I have worked hard to contain my grief and mostly I have, but I miss him SO MUCH and there’s no one else I love so much, of course, or ever will. I have lots of loving kind friends and I’m very grateful to them but nothing is the same.
Love, Caroline
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Same to you brummy, I hope you find some peace and comfort as well.
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Caroline14
Thank you so much for your reply.I too have worked hard to contain my grief, i feel its just a “mask” i put on when going out to work, shopping etc.Inside i am torn apart, my heart broken never to heal.I know there is never a good time for someone to pass but when it happens so suddenly, so unexpected it really does tear you apart.Its always the most loving, caring, kindest people that are taken from us.Coming back to the empty house is so painful too.I still cry every day some days more deeply than others.I talkt to my wife all the time but it breaks my heart she cant reply, not in the physical sense but i like to believe in the spiritual sense she does in some way, but that cant replace her physical prescence and never will.i often relive that awful day she passed over and over in my mind, asking myself could i have done more for her?But wee are not medical proffessionals, we put our faith in these people.Nothing will ever be the same again.
I hope the coming year will bring you some peace and comfort.Keep posting on here, we all understand how we all feel.Take care.
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Night night.
I hope get some sleep.
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Good Morning All
It’s a beautiful sunny, cold start to the day but I have to admit I feel sad.
I absolutely dislike January and always have.
I think it’s a miserable month which makes me a miserable devil.
The only time it was ok was with John because he was always upbeat and we could literally lock the door on the month and just burrow down.
All that’s gone now so I’m desperately trying to think of things to do.
I think I’ll get outside and tidy the garden although there’s not much to do at this time of year, everything is sleeping.
Need to pull myself together and stop maudlin but it’s not always easy..
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