Goodnight Mezza1958
Take good care of yourself
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Goodnight all for anyone like me cant settle as usual take care of you 
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Dawn of another day, with sun shining. Temp already 71 expected to hit mid 80s later.
I can hear Jackie shouting what’s that as she used that modern rubbish, centigrade or whatever they call it. 
I had a lie in until 4.15. Got up to use loo, then slept, or rather just snoozed until 6.30.
Going to walk down shop later and maybe go for a longer walk, if the threatened storm doesn’t arrive. May also pack up some glassware from our corner cabinet. I’ll see how it goes.
Anyway, have a good one.
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Morning John… the longest day today!
Its 4 months today for me, going to try and keep myself busy.
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Morning Mezza, it’s 15 weeks for me at 09.38 this morning. I usually try to be out of the house at this time, certainly out of the room where she passed. So yes don’t blame you for keeping busy.
You take care, drink lots of water today and you think of lovely memories of your husband as I will of Jackie.
In a photo booth, back in 69
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Lovely photo John
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Thanks. My son now n his 50s and I had hair
Talking about hair, this is one of my favourite memories of Jackie and my son.
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Aww certainty looked like he was having fun 
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Have a good as day as you can John.Take care.
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Mezza1958
You are doing the best thing in trying to keep busy.It was 4 months for me on 16th.Take good care of yourself.
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Thank you Brummy, I think its just going to be one of those unbearably sad days 
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I’ve just cried all the way back from the shop.
A school friend of Jackie has just emailed me a journal that a teacher kept of various walks and expeditions his class wen on in the years 59-64. It contains numerous pics that include Jackie.
While I will treasure it, it’s heartbreaking that I only found out after she passed 
There’s so much we could have talked about.
Still sobbing my heart out
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@Johnr
Aww John please don’t sob…it’s a glorious day and you’ve got new photos to look at and you can sit n imagine what you would’ve talked about…It’s not easy but you are doing fantastic starting to pack things and moving. Have you found a house or bungalow yet.
I went looking at a house n had mine valued yesterday but my daughter in law doesn’t think I should move from family home that they love coming to…wouldn’t mind it’s only a three minute walk away but a bit smaller…I’ll give it 12 months n then see how I feel…
Out to a BBQ this afternoon so fingers crossed weather keeps fine…
Enjoy your day and no more upset…
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What a wonderful video! Priceless memories xx
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I’ve finally stopped sobbing, I think. Still have wet eyes though.
I will print them off later and read it maybe tomorrow as I know I will sob.
I’m viewing 4 properties in Wales next week. 3 bungalows and 1 house. The one I really like has just been marked up as sold subject to contract. Hopefully the estate agent will still let me view it and if I like it, I’ll ask if I can go on a list in case the buyers drop out.
My son is insistent on me getting a bungalow rather than a house. Even though I’m a lot fitter than Jackie was, he could see how she was struggling over the last year or so, sleeping downstairs. So I can see he’s right so I will try to do what he wants, even if it means me renting in Wales for a short while.
Mitzi, it’s your life though as it is mine. If you want to move, then do it while you still can as I am going to do. While I respect my son’s wishes and you your daughter in law, we both have to do what we think is best.
That’s enough of being serious, you go and enjoy your BBQ. I haven’t had one for a long time. Quite jealous.
Look after yourself
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Thanks Glenys and good morning to you
We were so lucky that Jackie’s dad had one of those 8mm cameras and recorded numerous family occasions,
We had them transferred to digital many years ago and I have added music to many of them. Still have a few to go through. I’ll probably do them when I move.
You have a lovely day. xx
It sounds like a cliché mate but you have such great memories of Jackie. I know she is in your mind all the time, like Sue is. I hope you feel moments today and every day, when everything seems a bit less sad and hopeless.
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Thanks Jim. I do.
I’m just on a rollercoaster of grief today
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A lovely morning here John
Although they must be heart-breaking for you to watch, they wonderfully capture such beautiful memories and document you and your family’s life.
I too, am on a rollercoaster of grief lately, it’s hard to shake off.
I hope you have a lovely day, I certainly will try xx
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