It has been a comfort to me this site, I read all the messages and it makes you realise how many of you are on the same journey in life, its horrible, I just want time to go back and have more time with my husband, we had so many plans , holidays etc and now its all gone so suddenly and unexpected he wasn’t ill, and the memory of me doing cpr on him shouting at him to wake up will haunt me forever 
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Sunday can be a difficult day. The hugs and kisses were the best but the house used to feel homely even when my wife was in another room her presence would warm the whole house.
I’m going out for a long walk with plenty of clothes as we’ve decided to go back to winter 
over here.
I really hope everyone can find some peace today.
Wishing everyone a good day
Lots of hugs 
to you all
Tom
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Morning everyone,
it was overcast but the sun pops out now and then.
Another Sunday.
It will be a mixture of gardening, housework and drinking tea.
Wishing you a day with some peace, comfort and thoughtful people x
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I understand that exactly Brummy. We had bought our caravan from near there. We sited it at lovely little site near Aberdaron and had some lovely times there with family and on our own. Lots of places to go nearby, Abersoch Pwhelli, Porthmadog. We sold the caravan in 2022 because we found we weren’t really using it enough, my son bought an apartmentin Spain and since retiring we started going there more. We did love it there though 
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Dear Babycake
It helps me to imagine what he would say, I also hug myself at times. I can almost hear his voice at times. They were our person, the one we woke in the night with a worry or pain. I have to believe Stephens still with me so when I’m in my own I talk to him. It helps a little.
We have to find a way to cope, there’s no waking from this nightmare. Keeping busy helps, so does this group x
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Babycake I did the same. My husband just fell to the floor. It felt like forever for the paramedic to run down the drive, I screamed for help but no one came. I’ve learnt to block the flashbacks out (almost) a grief counsellor told me to imagine pulling down a blind on the vision and have another memory ready to replace it. The horror is something we don’t need to keep reliving. I hope this helps x
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Helen39, i always talk to my husband and hug my memory bear made from his shirts, it is a comfort definitely, i always say my goodnight words to him as we always did and thank him for everything, i just dont know how to live without him, he passed away July 2025 yet it seems like yesterday everyday, its so heartbreaking this journey is x
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Babycake Stephen died July last year too. I have a locket with a lock of his hair, I hold this little bit of him when I sleep or need to feel him near. I’m going to do a memory bear for our grandchildren when I can bear to go in the wardrobe x
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Helen39 my husband was July 17th, the heartbreaking day this journey began, my daughter had the memory bear made for me, it was a surprise at Christmas, I shed a thousand tears( probably more actually) its such a comfort and it has the same colour cap on my husband wore too , i bet the necklace is a comfort for you, something to hold on to
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It’s now raining here now , I managed to get my dog out before it started. I have been changing the bedding. This afternoon I going start shredding a lot of paper work no longer need . Not very exciting I know. It needs doing. 
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Sunday afternoons we would go out for a walk if nice weather or for a cuppa and a slice of cake, watch some telly or some sport together. I miss him so much just having him around - I need to find something else to do on weekends now, other than crying and watching photos of him
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Sounds productive, I’m trying to do a few jobs but get overwhelmed 
then have tears. It is a very dull day today.
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It still early days for you ,and you are bound to feel like that .you are doing really well . Even if you only do one thing a day you have achieved something.
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Hi Lj.G , I thought from the beginning that I would do exercise, sort of taking the pain from this he’ll out on my body. I must admit I often thought at the beginning that if I had a heart attack or something I wouldn’t care but I found it helpful as well as walking until I couldn’t take another step. I’m sure it has helped with sleep. We all have to find our way through. I really hope you find something that helps you
Tom
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Hi Anita, something I do on my many walks is to find something beautiful every day in nature. I’m not sure where I heard this now but I like to find a beautiful flower, blossom, cloud or ray of sunshine and share it with my wife. I often feel as she is bringing it to my attention or if it’s a ray of sunshine it’s my wife smiling at me. Anyway time to take the dogs out.
I hope you find your way. Wishing you a lovely afternoon
Tom
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come out which means I won’t have to dry the dogs 
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I feel the same , Sundays used to be our day together. We would go out somewhere together. Now Sundays are long day to get though. Not sure what the answer is but I need to find something.
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I live in the East Midlands and there are lots of forests and lovely places to walk, but the weather this weekend is not helping (it’s raining right now and it’s 7C ). Before he died I went for 30-40 mins every day and did the odd parkrun. Now I do shorter walks that don’t allow me to think too much (which is still v sad and stressful). I will start trying longer walks as soon as teh weather gets better. You too have a lovely afternoon!
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I would be walking around crying most of the time at the beginning, often couldn’t see where I was going. Just take it slowly and at your own pace.
Wishing you all the best
Tom 
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Goodnight John, hope you sleep well x
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