Terrible night, kept dreaming i was looking fir her and couldn’t find her. Feeling of shockcand numbness still, very disturbing sleep
Morning All.
It never ceases to amaze me how some people behave with someone who has been bereaved.
I’m very lucky that my family live close by within 5 mins of each other but I don’t want to bother them but they say it’s not a bother at all. I was never lucky enough to have siblings.
Extended family have also called by
My friends have been supportive just by checking in. It doesn’t make up for what we’ve lost n that will never go away but it does help.
I sometimes think age has something to do with it.
I’m a young 71 year old so my friends the same age n have time to ring or call n get together. People of working age are usually busy working, kids, grandchild care. It’s not an excuse it’s another perspective…
Morning everyone, I’m feeling awful today, very down. Just want to say again how greatfu l am to all of you for being here so that I don’t feel alone. I’m going for a walk otherwise I’ll be sitting here crying. You’re all in this pain and I think of all of you. Sorry, I do ramble. X
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@Patsy219
Darling you don’t ramble. It does you good to vent your feelings. We all have to do it…I think it does help a bit…
I was teary when I woke up but that seems normal now. I just put Johns bedtime T-shirt on n went n made a coffee n back under covers for a short while.
Now dry hair n go out for a walk with sons dog before sun gets hotter….
My other sons mum in law coming this afternoon so it could be a glass or bottle of Prosecco but that reminds me of John n me in sunny afternoons eating n drinking in either my garden or his…that will mean tears again…
Chin up Patsy n get out in the sunshine if you can it might help you. Speak later…
Hello Pastsy
I lost my Mum 8 weeks ago.
It’s so so tough this grief journey isn’t it?
This week has been so bad missing Mum.
Please don’t think your rambling as we all have this feeling.
Good to share & Jyst know there are people out there feeling Jyst as you are.
Sending my love & thoughts .
Will.x
Hi Mitzi and Kettle, thank you for your kind words and so sorry again for your losses. I’ve been for walk then of course back to empty house. I need to do something this afternoon, but as know grief seems to sap your energy. How I’d love for family to be nearer they’re, five hundred miles away, sister not nearly so far. I hope you both and the others on this forum have a good day as far as you possibly can. X
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@Patsy219
Im in Lancs where are you.
, Mitzi, I’m near Edinburgh, enjoy your prosecco. Think I might sit in sun for a bit and have drink. X
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I have just done my first bereavement coffee morning at a local hospice. I will give it another go in s couple of weeks. As the new boy, i just kept quiet. They all new each other so were chatting happily to each other. They said hello and goodbye to me. Like i said its the first time i have been in a group since Sue’s funeral, so i was very nervous. I suppose just getting out and sitting with people will do me good. If I am honest all i wanted to do is cry. At least a got a couple of pork pies from the butchers for tea.
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All being well you will find her again. I keep trying to find Sue when i go to sleep, but not seen her since Saturday. I keep asking her to come and see me.
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I go to a spiritualist church, it comforts me. She has contactedxme twice
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I do similar to you. I lay in bed and hold out my hand and ask Val to give me some sense of her being around, but no luck so far. I just need to be near her, to know she’s ok. I open her wardrobe each night before bed to hug her clothes and say goodnight. I used to be able to catch her perfume on her clothes but as she’s been gone for over 4 years now there’s hardly any scent left.
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She will still be watching you. The only hope i have left, is that i will see her again on the other side.
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John died approx 6 months ago but it could have been yesterday nothi g has changed. I cannot get up in the morning i lie there awake and wonder why should i get up. There’s no reason. When i wake up the sun is shining through the curtains so i know it’s a nice day…doesn’t help though.when i do get up around 12 and look outside the neglected flowers are still blooming doesn’t help though. The blue tits are going in and out of the bird box doesn’t help though. Nothing works for me. I’m still lost and don’t know how to go on. Good Luck to others who can cope. Xx
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We all cope differently, in a way you are coping. Its not wro g to feel like this, we all do. It shows love, hopefully one day it will change for you, take care x
Hi yewtree, like i saiid before we are not alone. If you need to post and talk do it. To be honest i don’t know what gets me up. As i spend most of the time with the tv on and starring into space. My garden is a mess as well. I have just made myself do a couple of things a walk around Alnwick garden last week were i cried all the time looking for Sue’s smiling face. Then today a bereavement coffee morning. These bright sunny mornings don’t mean anything, they only make me miss her more as we should have been on are walks. I look forward to 9pm when i can go back to bed and hopefully get some sleep. I am 57 and i feel like my life is over. Yet something or someone keeps me going i don’t know why.
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Since my walk I’ve been sitting, I know I.should do something to.help myself, it’s like I’m glued.to.the chair. This is.the worst.few days I’ve had for a while. My waking.up feeling of not being able to cope has lasted all day. I’ve decided maybe to write the rest of the day off and hopefully tomorrow will be better. I sincerely.hope you’re all having a better day. X
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Sorry to say we know what you mean. Hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Take care.
Nightwish, thank you for getting back. I think if we could all get a better sleep it helps a bit.
@Dan5
I’ve always enjoyed a spiritualist church. I find it comforting and amazing to be honest.
As it’s only 5 weeks since John died I’m going to leave it a bit longer but I absolutely know he’s been around me…and maybe my mum who will be hating seeing me so upset…She always said she’d come back n I’m sure she is…
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