I understand. Please take care
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Thank you. It is horrible seeing the one you love so much change and in agony. I am just hoping that the good memories start overtaking the bad.
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Yes, it is horrible watching. Not something to remember but for some reason i think about it a lot. Punishment? Guilt? I dont know. I do know that it hurts so much so i do know how you feel. I always told Tracy to go at the 1st chance, she did. Sayi g goodbye was heartbreaking x
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I just saw this site on how to cope when waking up. This is the very worst time for me. I say to myself ( I’m still here). I’m afraid I just exist now. My husband passed away before Christmas, exactly a week after being told he had cancer and this evil thing had spread everywhere. Apart from being told he had a chest infection and had a cough. Think I’m still in shock. Best wishes to all of you.
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I can emphasise with you fully. We are here but im just here physically tbh. Numbness is the only emotion i feel. No happiness and i just function , its my process. I. Hoping i can start to live again but i thi k its a long way off
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I am starting to remember the bad things less and less. And thinking about Ian a bit more doing the good things. It does hurt that I won’t be doing them with him anymore.
Alot of music that comes on the radio it hurts because we used to have nights out alot and loved having a dance. Also holidays twice a year.
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Just take a day at a time. If you think too far ahead it makes you very sad. it does with me.
I’m sure we will get there eventually.
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That’s heartbreaking. I thought it was bad enough me going through it with Ian from last October till the end of January this year.
I wake at between 5.30am and 6am. I cannot get up at that time. I lay there and try and relax. Maybe put the radio on for a bit. I get up at 9, don’t know why that time, but it always seems to be.
It’s all so very sad.
Look after yourself
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Im struggling now with it all. I just cant believe it even tho it us true. I cant take it tbh
I still carnt believe it’s real.
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I know what you mean. We all have lost are future’s with are soul mate, and it hurts like h**l.
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Dan and Gill, I can’t believe it but know it’s true. I have all the emotions but numb at the same time. Loneliness is a big thing for me also, family are so far away.
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Unbelievablely true
So lonely, it hurts lihe hell
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I know what you mean. Family and friends are over 130 miles away. I would love to go for a coffee and talk about Sue with someone. They say i can go down but i don’t want to spend my time alone in a hotel. It’s bad enough here, but at least i know Sue was happy here and i want to be with Sue. I am hoping to try a grief coffee morning soon if i feel up to it.
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I can’t listen to music anymore, I just go to pieces. I very rarely watch TV. I’ve always loved reading but keep reading the same sentence over and over, can’t take it in can’t understand it. I’m going to force myself to go for a walk soon. Hopefully fresh air will give me a miracle cure for this awfulness.
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You are so like me atm. Just in bits tbh. Sometimes i force myself out but mainly to the shop. Socialising and conversing with people is a long way off
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Nightwish, maybe we have similar thinking, when I’m at home I want to be out, when I’m out I just want to get home. My family are much further away. Hoping they’ll be able to visit before too long
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Dan it’s all so cruel, it’s something none of us can prepare for.
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So very true, hiw could you