I realise every bereavement is different. My husband died in Jan 2025. It was unexpected but expected. He had many health problems. Our life fell apart when we sold or family house. We needed the finance to support us. Moving to a rental was the end of our happy family life. He died in this place we both disliked. Now he is gone it feels like an even bigger hole has opened up. I had unconditional love - now it’s gone.
My heart goes out to you. I lost my Grandma in March 2025, but last week my Mum emptied her bungalow out with her brothers and she was absolutely heartbroken. Its like the last broken piece of puzzle, one for loosing someone, then the funeral, then sorting through their things. Grief is absolutely painful as hell. I am very sorry for your loss
Likewise, my husband passed away in January 2025. We were married for 54 years.
He had some issues: macular degeneration, hearing problems, mild mobility problems.e
On 10 January, he had his covid vaccination; I tried to persuade him not to because of his age and the fact that we didnt go anywhere. Two days later, his lower limbs gave way. He ended up in hospital, the worst thing was - and me and family still cannot get over it - he was shunted from one hospital to another 5 times.
The nurses and doctors were good, but the system failed him. In the end he lost his spirit. We moved him to a nursing home near our home. Sadly, and unexpectedly, he passed away two days later.
I am finding it very difficult to cope; I am suffering with a lot of stress and anxiety.
I know every bereavement is different.
Rose and Yabibi, Sorry you are having a hard time. My Darling wife of 52 years passed away suddenly in April 2024 . I find this site helpful, especially the Losing a Partner area, people there are going through the same loss as I am. No one, who has not lost a long term partner, can understand how you feel. They do. I just had to take one day at a time, it was so hard. Just over a year later I still miss her and will always love her, but with the help of others I am starting to be able to manage the grief a little better. Please come on for a chat or a rant or a ramble people who have suffered this loss understand and will be there for you,
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Thank you - I have only just realised the double effect of moving and bereavement. It is definitely a double whammy.
It is so hard - just coping with it all. I wonder when it might get better. But you have given me hope it might.
Rose, I found it hard with my friends and other contacts round where I live. I hope you have not lost contact with yours due to the move.
Rob
We were going to move area when I still had my husband. I’m glad I decided to stay as I am lucky with a good support network. B but even starting again in a new house is very daunting.
Early days fir you, and for me too but I can assure you that stress & anxiety are absolutely normal. I’m suffering too, some times feeling that I’m losing my mind. I was warned about “widow’s brain” and now I know what it means xxx
So sorry, that sounds awful. I also lost my husband totally unexpectedly 11th Jan 25. He collapsed and died in front of me of an embolism 5 minutes from our house. No warning, nothing. We were on our way to the shop. We were together 42 years. Some days I am ok, today has been awful. He had just turned 65 . We had such a good life, had done so much but had so much left to do. My 2 sons miss their dad so much. They both got good promotions in their jobs recently, and both said they went to call their dad to tell him. Let tomorrow be a better day.
I am having a bad day today. Trying to pack up yet again for a move without my husband.
I don’t know when I will be happy again. I know I’m lucky with some good friends but I feel so different to them now. Why do people ask ‘how are you’?
cloudysky i am so sorry for your loss.It was awful what you went through and such a shock.My dear wife passed away in february 25.she had a rare blood condition.she had not been well for some time and the blood condition was hereditary,but it was such ashock,she died here in the living room. i called 999 but it was too late they tied cpr for seemed like ages but to no avail,my dear wife had gone.she was 66 and we had been married 36 years. i do hope things get better for you.we are all thinking of you on here.
I get asked often - How are you? Makes me very annoyed.
Brummy - my husband and I met and married in Birmingham 50 years ago.
I am so sorry for your loss and the trauma you suffered.
I don’t know where we go from here I wish I did.
Thanks Yabibi - not just me then!
What a silly question to ask someone who has lost a dearest one.
Thank you @brummy . That is kind of you. Thinking of you and the loss of your wife also.
Thank you for your reply Rose.My great grandparents were from Birmingham,Aston.Iam from shropshire but moved to cheshire in 2012 to help look after my wifes mother.Now they are both gone.just me now.Sometimes is it best to know someone hasnt got long or them just go suddenly.i suppose there is no right way.it just hurts so much the suddeness.we had so much to look forward to and that was taken away.the kindest caring loving lady taken from me,now there is just emptiness.i am trying but its so hard.came back from shopping on saturday just cried my eyes out.
@Rose25 I just feel so tired all of the time. I think the reality of it all has kicked in and am fed up with all of the paperwork etc. Thinking of you xxx
I am tired all the time too. Have been told that’s normal after a bereavement but sleep is difficult. Yes the paperwork is incredible - trying to keep up with life let alone paperwork is too much. The sun is shining but not for me.
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Bless you Rose , I just came home to a letter addressed to me and my husband, first time it has happened in a while. TMy husband worked on the oil rigs so did go away regularly but we were constantly in touch. I think sometimes my mind tricks myself into thinking he is offshore, then it hits me.I tell myself to get a grip because I was really independent when he was away, bringing up 2 boys a year apart. When he was home we had good times and had just taken early retirement and were off to Goa as we frequently travelled. I feel like we have been cheated of so much . I still think he will walk through the door. Also lost my dad young and he was so lovely . It is all so sad xxx
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