So sorry for your loss. I lost my much loved husband a week ago and i ubderstand entirely where you’re coming from. I don’t feel like eating and feel sick all the time. You have to eat something tho lovely or you won’t have the strength to carry on. Small snacks and often thats what i’ve been doing. Its such an awful shock isn’t it. And i never knew how painful grief can be physically as well as emotionally. Our hearts are aching, we feel we can’t go on, but we will my love - we will find the strength 
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Thankyou for ur lovely message and I’m so sorry for ur loss. Its two weeks today he passed and funeral not till 5th December which is my birthday. I can’t see how I can go on much longer I’m broken. His birthday on 30th Nov, our 3rd wedding anniversary 4th December. Evenings are hardest. I can’t sit in the living room at night no more. I’m in bed by 5 
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I’m finding i want to sleep all the time so i don’t have to think. Try and find a distraction to keep your mind off things temporarily - do you like reading? A tv programme you enjoy? Everything will remind you of your loved one unfortunately. My hubby used to play Father Xmas for charities - i used to be his elf and i’m finding the xmas adverts so triggering. I think we just have to take one day at a time. Just do what you can, don’t put pressure on yourself, be kind to yourself - thats what he would have wanted
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I’m the same sleep and diazapham… Thought of Christmas makes me sick. I can’t watch TV, I crochet a lot for family but can’t even do that. My youngest is 16 in January he was so proud of her. I just seem to be obsessing over cleaning as he was ocd and I don’t want to let him down . Just forced myself to have a shower 
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I’m so so sorry you are going through this, grief is a very strange thing, we all do different things at different times. I’m six weeks in and I slept on the couch for about three weeks, couldn’t go into the bed. Now I find comfort in it, you have to do what’s right for you. It’s so difficult. I lived off Jaffa cakes and biscuits, now I’m starting to eat a tiny bit better, I know I’ve lost weight as my clothes are getting too big for me. I’m only a size UK10 to start with so I’m pushing myself to eat better. The loneliness is the hardest. I force myself to go out a wee walk every day, it helps me, the days are long. I get to sleep ok but keep waking up every few hours. I try and read to get back to sleep but find I read the same page over and over as my mind keeps thinking of other things. I wish we could reach out and speak to each other but I guess all we would do is cry so this is the next best thing. Keep posting and we will keep helping you. Sending massive hugs, you are not alone xxx
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Hi everyone im 4wks in. Steve’s funeral is Wednesday im bloody dreading it. Ive just got back from seeing him in the funeral home…he looked beautiful but so cold. I just wanted him to wake up. Im going again tomorrow as my daughter wants to see her dad one last time. It is just surreal one day im ok then im just crying and crying. It hurts so much we were together for 52 years he was my only true love. How im going to navigate life without him I just dont know. It helps reading these forums.
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Sending u big hugs 
. I saw my hubby first two days after he passed. But I’m not having him embarmed so I’ve been advised not to see him 
. But I’m going to go sit with the coffin on his birthday and our wedding anniversary xx hugs to u all x
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Sending u big big hugs xx. My bed is my safe zone. My hubby passed in a hospice a beautiful beautiful place xx.
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I haven’t changed my bed sheets because my husband passed in our bed with me and the family around him. I don’t want to get rid of his scent on the pillows x
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So sorry for your loss
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