I really am lost! I just want to be with him. 
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I’m sorry you find yourself here. Its a club no one wants to be in. The beginning is such a daunting time. I’m 57 and lost my partner in January, he was only 49. Take it slow, an hour at a time. Take all the help you can get. Cry, scream, shout and wail. It’s better out than in.
Keep in touch here, there’s always someone listening. You will encounter so many different emotions, it’s perfectly normal.
Best wishes Ali
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I lost my partner just over 2 years ago and I’m heartbroken, sometimes I feel so angry because he always use to tell me I’ll always be here for you, I’d never leave you and then in the first wave of covid he died,I can’t see a future without him
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Hi Suzanne im sending you love and hugs so sorry you lost such a good man.
I lost my husband 3 months ago and im devastated feel angry with so many people around me not there fault they cant get it right for me. Xx
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Hey susie
I know what you mean when you say your angry with everyone around you, it’s so hard because it doesn’t matter what people say it’ just doesn’t help, I’m still feeling so hurt, sometimes I suffer panic attacks because I just want to talk to him,
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Hi Suzanne 5
Just like you I lost my husband, Ian, two years ago. Where those two years have gone I just don’t know. All I know is that I think about him every day and miss him so much.
At times I want to scream and shout as there is no way I can fill the void he left in my life. I’m busy most days but everything is just a distraction from the awful loneliness. My first thought in the morning is another day to get through and in bed at night, relief another day is over.
Why is life so cruel?
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Hey
That’s all I feel now that life is cruel, my partner loved life and lived it to the full and he was a really good man, it’s not fair, he always looked forward and became of him I did the same but now I feel there’s nothing for me anymore and like you i go to bed thinking ok I’ve got through another day but I don’t sleep well, because he there in my head all the time,
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Im same … im not angry with him … my husband for going because he couldnt help it as he was ill … im more angry with all the useless family i have who do not even try to understand how i feel and have not tried since his funeral 
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I really understand that. Its such a cruel life.
Feeling lost is how a lot of us feel after losing a partner who is dearly loved. Love and hugs to you.
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Totaly agree im feeling really cross about the way family have neglected to care since memorial im not being cross just feel dissapoinrment and sad.
They have no idea how earth shattering it is to lose a loved one
Its helpfull to hear so many if you have felt the same but very sad. Love to you all.
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I lost my husband last July and i still feel totally lost without him. Little things keep reminding me of him and start me crying. he was my soulmate and I cant see a future without him it is so hard.
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It is … so very hard … and im angry and then i cry ! I wish he was here to protect me xx
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Its just not good enough ! Im beyond appalled with my families reaction to it all ! They have been totally pathetic and i will tell the world how pathetic they have been ! Leaving us to carry the pain X
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It seems to be a common thing with the families not caring what we’re going through, my experience of it has been awful, I’ve feel like I’ve just been thrown away like a piece of rubbish, it hurt so much
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Yeh like you’re some sort of leper … !!! I didn’t want my husband to leave this world ! Why would i ? I bloody loved him ! Are they all just totally thick or something ???
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Hi Ali, im so sorry for you too. Im 56 & my muddy was only 54! He got sick in February & i looked after him at home since then. He was given 3 months to live.
His lost his fight on 29th May & his funeral was 13th June. Im totally broken! I just want to be eith him. Ive never felt pain like this. I cant funtion without him.
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@Dee65 I promise you, you will be ok. I remember those devastatingly all consuming first weeks. You will find your feet. Just take an hour at a time. What you’re feeling is normal. My pain was so great I wanted to die but now, I have a life worth living, all be it with waves of devastation for everything that’s lost but I now have good days, days I’m content. Right now, you’ll feel like you’ll never get there but one day you will make a choice to suffer forever or try and make a life. I chose to make a life and there are glimmers of positive days ahead, just a glimmer, but it’s something.
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Thank you, i do hope so atm i too just want to doe to be with him. Its all consuming sadness.
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Ahh you know I do understand what your feeling, the overwhelming feeling of wanting so much to be with my partner and not being able to talk to him is sometimes so bad, I jsomrtimes go to bed and just wish I could go to sleep and not wake up, my heart feels like it hurts so much x
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My partner passed away March 2022 and I’m still struggling feel like this pain will never pass we did so much together to forget even to little things shops we used to shop in days out even tv shows it’s a vicious circle !!! Also had someone come into my life but struggling to give them the best of me because I’m so mixed up
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