Hi Ghaz .i lost my son to a rare sarcoma in his thigh last year he was 25 .he lasted four months .cancer in bones lungs . I say the same why us . Its a wicked world .and we have to try live this new life without our lovely boys . This site has helped me so much just to talk with people who know how you feel sending u my love so sorry x
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Hi Ghaz , sending love xxxx
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Thank you so much Zoe, so I can relate my grief with you as other people don’t understand what we are going through.
What an unbelievable tragedy happened and this is something that I never expected.
Xxx
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Thanks Teddy, just and down and my anxiety starts hitting me
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I get that ! Anxiety is awful I wake up every morning shaking xxx
day is not too bad but night is difficult and I get night sweat xx
Hi ghaz night time is worse for me too .this is going to be my second xmas without sam .still always waiting and there not coming back .our bew lifes are so hard .its a lonely road xx
First Christmas without him and last year this time he finished his stem cell transplant and we were told that he is cancer free and doing very well.But within a a month he started feeling unwell, they did X Ray’s, scan and biopsy, there was no sign of cancer but his lungs suddenly invaded by ???.They tried every thing , all sort of antibiotics.Not sure it was a secondary cancer or pneumonia.He was in ICU and on ventilator for a few days and then his organs failed.
So unfortunate to have this ki d of life
Sending you my love and strength
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Very tuff time off year , I literally just want to bury my head in the sand xxxx
Hi lovely ladies , do hope you are all doing ok . Xxx
Hi Teddy i always think of you , hope your ok xxx just getting over covid feeling sorry for myself . Miss our boys more than ever eh Teddy. Just wicked xxx
Hi Zoe , it sure is I honestly think I have just shut down but I just go through day to day things and tick my boxes . Xxx
Im sorry, i just cant imagine what you must be going through when its a child you lose.
Big hugs xx
Hello everyone here. Good to see a post from you Teddy . I am finding this second year of loss very strange . The same As year one in some ways but harder too. Sometimes i have moments of panic when I wake up and realise they are really gone , its all so weird at moment so I just do a bit of what you do Teddy and other times just take to my bed , Zoe and Nell i read your posts on other threads . You both do such a lot to help others on the site - its good to see . Love to you all as always.xxxx
Hi jane theres no words im sorry not spoke to you before have you lost some one xxx
Hi jenna lovely to hear from you. I also think as time goes its harder . On the 27th its two years for our loss of my beautiful boy .its so real now .i think at first your in great shock its trauma. This life is cruel .but we have to try to live with this new normal its wrong on every level big hugs to all 
Hi Zoe9 yes my Husband, 5 months ago. He was 55 and lifes shitty now x
Hello Jane - sorry to hear about the loss of your husband. All losses are horrible and traumatic. Its only a few months so you must be still in shock and a million thoughts and feelings. Sending love and strength to you xx
Oh jane im so very sorry nothing makes sense .he was so young . Hope you have good family and friends . Sending big hug to you xx much love
Thanks Jenna and zoe9
Spend a lot of time one now but its just how it is. Seems to be getting harder xx