Nice to hear from you Jenna , I often think about you as yes December was when I think we both came on here . Yes extremely hard just getting through the days . I now cope by not thinking and putting everything in a box . No I didn’t manage to go back to work to hard . Environment just not for me no more . Mad really how we manage to get through the days I’m still waking up shaking every morning it has just become normal now . Do hope you are being kind to yourself even though it’s so bloody hard one day at a time xxxxxx
Hello Teddy -hope you are as well as can be. I am aware that your Daniel passed in December same as my Jonnie who died on the 4th December. It feels like it was yesterday all of a sudden and is very painful and sad
I just wanted you to know that i will be thinking of you over the next few weeks and send you my love.jx
Hi Jenna , omg didn’t realise it was the same day ! I must say I often think off you . I can honestly say I don’t know where the time has gone I still feel I’m in the same place . I have just shut off and that’s my way of coping . How you doing ? Xxx
Hi Teddy - good to hear from you. The same day for our boys. I have been feeling a different kind of emotion. Just incredibly sad and missing the boys ,but it is softer and in some ways more painful. I do feel more able to cope but I am no longer the same person. FUNNILY my hair has gone from greyish to white but I do not care. When i first lost my boys I did not really think I would survive but I have. I no longer look at whether I have made progress with this or that I just hoped i would survive It sounds Teddy that you have got through this year by being with your childrevn and grandchildren which is lovely. I have only one grandchild and he is 14 and into his own thing which is okk. Well we will carry on over the next month or so loving and remembeering our boys. Keep in touchxxxxxj
Yes definitely my kids and grandkids keep me alive but yes we are different people now and we learn how to survive in our own little world . I honestly still can’t think about things just can’t cope so I just put all my feelings in boxes . Xxx
Oh Teddy i hope i have not upset you by being in touch. Let me know if u prefer me not to .Bless you
Hi jenna and Teddy i always think of you sending you lots of love .yes we are different people .we wear a mask to the world take care always here always thinking of you big hugs zoe xx
Thanks Zoe xx
Yes life is very strange ! We all put our mask on our way of surviving xxx big hugs to all xxxx
Omg that is horrendous. Of course you cant think like that. I think sometimes its just meant to be. Its not your fault.
Big hugs xx
No Jenna not at all . I always think about you ! Xxxx
Hello Jenna and Teddy - good to hear you are keeping on keeping on. You were two of the first people I ever spoke to here after I lost my daughter. She died early January and I’m thinking how can it be true? Yet the world keeps turning and we are learning to cope better, but there’s such a big hole in everything. Sending you and everyone love xxxx
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Hi Nell , lovely to hear from you ! Yes how time has gone by and we I am still in no man’s world . Xxx
Must say ladies I am absolutely dreading next month but as I know it will come and go and there is nothing I can do ! Xxx
Hello Nell and Teddy, yes I am a bit shakey at the moment too. Just sadly in September was Adrian anniversary and now cannot remeber much about the day itself. I have their ashes here. I decided to keep them until after anniversary . Its been a bit odd really, i,ve talked to them, got angry with them and sang the songs I sung to them when they were little .I will be burying the ashes at the end of January. Nell will be thinking of you too, i have been reading your posts now and again and i have posted one or two but do not have much to say. It has been a hard hard year for us all, I am still doing my one day at a time ,and yes Teddy hey keep passing by, much love to you all x
Hello Teddy - sorry am late but here I am Remembering your beloved son Daniel, and my sweet boy Jonathon who passed away 4th December 2001. Much love to you all and to our boys.xxxx
Teddy so sorry got date wrong - should read 2021 ,am
tired very sad day . Much love as alwaysx-
Sending you big hugs wish i had a magic wand much love zoe xx
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Lovely to hear from all you beautiful ladies ! I’d imagine we always think of each offer in this awful time . The pain and suffering will never ever go ! We just go to war and take one day at a time xxxx love and hugs to you all xxxxx
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Hello everyone,
I don’t always use this website but its amazing how you guys help each other.I lost my 24 years old son February 22.He was all in sudden diagnosed with non hodgkin’s aggressive stage 4 lymphoma.He had stem cell transplant and was in remission but after a few days started feeling unwell and ended up admitting in the UCL, where his health deteriorated and he ended up going into ICU and then ventilator, the his organs failed and passed away.
It’s a very difficult time for me as he always lived with me and we were very close to each other.
Why did this happen to him?
Why did this happen to me?
Why were we chosen for this?
We had so many future plans and now I can only see him in my dreams.
It is so unfair to us.
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