I know your pain. I lost my son 10 months ago to suicide. He was 2 weeks shy of his 35th birthday. We loved him so much. He was beautiful and kind. He was also my best friend. We worked together for many years. My co workers all loved him and would say what a great son I had. The girls would call him the looker. He had many friends, male, female, older & younger. He loved us & his sister, aunts, uncles & cousins, but he was inpatient & inpulsive, plus he didn’t want to burden anyone. I miss him everyday. I cry everyday. I believe he gave me a sign. I don’t always believe in signs, but what happened cannot be explained. My son was always a happy, fun person. His friends still miss him and have reached out to me. I keep going for my daughter & husband and it is God’s will. I just hope I see him one day. I didn’t find my son, but, I was there when the paramedics took him. I have gone to trauma sessions, grief counselling and coping centre. The coping centre was the best. Suicide is becoming much to common in Canada.