Wendy
That dog beans. Or curry did laugh at that
I am at where he going on a date
With the lady that her husband killed his self
She is funny to
Will watched a few off them tonight
Take care xx
Thank you Toppy, Wendy 75 and Debbie55 - thank you for supporting me today and for your understanding. I know we are struggling so much; all of us just trying to get through the worst time of our lives in which ever way we can - and then, in the midst of all this , the fact that you take the time to reach out and help me and give me guidance and tips on how to cope is so tremendously and unbelievably kind of you. I have been completely on my own since the day of Alan’s funeral on December 23rd. As he died mid-December,I am already well through the ‘year of firsts’ - the first Christmas, the first New Year, Valentine’s Day . His birthday is next week. Every single one feels like another loss.
I do talk to my husband all the time and I write to him everyday. But I love the idea of writing ‘Our Story’ ,the wonderful years we spent together and the things we did and I will start doing that - no doubt the tears will flow as I do.
I’m also going to try and cross just one thing off my very long ‘to do’ list today so I feel that at least one thing has been achieved, though it probably won’t be cleaning!.
Sometimes it’s all so overwhelming. There is so much one has to do - going through paperwork, sorting bills, taking on tasks that used to be my husband’s domain like fixing the car and the printer and all the other things which have stopped working recently. Today I’ve been completely overwhelmed but will try going for an hour at a time approach. Thank you all so much.
I binged watched , I am a bit of a binge watcher !!
I watched all of season one is one go and the next day all of season 2, I thought it was brilliant. Thank god for Ricky Gervais . He is a good bloke and helps with rescue dogs .
Bunny88 . Try not to get overwhelmed , one day at a time is now my moto. I started to freak out the first week about all the things I now would have to do myself. I can’t even find our photos on the PC . But I sorted all the admin side relating to his death on my own and that builds confidence . I realised there is no point in worrying about everything and there is always Google. I had to Google how to get the photos off his iPhone as I gave the phone to his daughter and had to reset it first. We have a converted van that we went away in and in haven’t got a clue how everything works . I will worry about that another day and just think about what a need to do today. It sounds like you had a really tough 7 years, you must be emotionally drained and need to recover. Time does help I believe , it’s got to otherwise no one would be able to get on with there lives and feel any happiness again. My husbands grandson is due in April, he so wanted to see the baby so I must be happy for him as well. Sending love x
Stop it now everyone! It’s not fair I don’t have netflix😔
My husband died 18 months ago and we had been married for 54 years and 56 years of knowing him. He had dementia and i couldn’t bear to see him deteriorating into this strange person who had always been my rock and anchor and became so vulnerable. It broke my heart totally. I didn’t want him to live as he was … but i didn’t want him to die either. I moved house to be near to my two sons and their family but it has not lessened my grief…in fact it has made it worse as I know he has never been in this house and i cry every day thinking of him and missing him so desperately. So for me the grief has not got any better. I feel that I don’t belong anywhere… not in my previous area or in this new one and i just yearn to have my life with him back even with his dementia. So i know how you are all feeling.