Thank you for that,yes we paid the price for being let down.Our beautiful wives taken from us when their treatment was cancelled in favour of Covid.They never tell you how many have died from cancer,heart disease ,strokes etc etc. Take care Michael x
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Morning Michael i agree with you john diagnosed feb didnāt start chemo till may 2020 feel let down lv annie x
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Yes there must be so many of us that feel this way,NHS let us down ,save the NHS and clap,never again. Michael x
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Thankyou Annie. Company is comforting in isolation
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,it is because we understand each other and what weāre going through I have 2 fantastic children but they have there own life so can go days without seeing anybody lv annie
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That goes for me too,our children have their own lives so cannot be with you all the time.The lonely days are the worst.That is when the panic sets in for me.I tried sorting a few of my wifes things today but had to stop it was too painful.It has been 15 weeks tomorrow but I still cannot face going through her stuff. Much love Michael x
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Iām so sorry some of you feel let down by NHS, I have nothing but praise for them, I thought Keith had had a stroke, phoned Dr and within 2 hours he was having a brain scan that showed the cancer had spread to his brain, Keiths treatment was fantastic they organised radiotherapy that day which helped him for a few weeks but then unfortunately it came back with a vengeance about 10 days before he died, everyone has a different story but as I said NHS, his Drās & oncologist were fantastic x
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Well you were lucky my friend,my Judith was let down badly,she never got the scan needed to show how far the cancer had spread until it was too late thanks to covid.2 major operations,chemo,radiotherapy and she still was not saved.I will never clap them again. Michael x
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I am the same. Two sons who live local and try to support me but they have work, their own lives and it is not a substitute for the companionship, comfort and relationship we have lost
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The pain is unbearable after 13 weeks , itās the loneliness , the scary feeling of being on your own nearly all the time, my son and family have been great and supportive, but I am reluctant to share my feelings with him as I know he is grieving for his mum.
The shock of losing my wife suddenly and giving her CPR for 20 minutes while waiting for the paramedics has taken its toll on me physically and mentally, lost weight, anxiety and now I think depression is setting in, itās not being able to see any future and realising this is my life now for the rest of my days.
Sorry to go on, but I think it helps when you can share and write things down.
Love to you all.
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13 weeks is such a short time Dunckico You are bound to be in shock after what you went through.
I hope there is someone you can talk to, although I understand you donāt want to burden your son. They wouldnāt think of you as a burden though.
We canāt look too much to the future at the minute, but time passes, whether we want it to or not, and hopefully in time you will start to feel a little bit brighter. Even just a tiny glimmer of hope will help. Lots of love
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I know your pain as I have it too.15 weeks today for me ,lost my dear wife to bladder cancer stage 4 because of covid.No scan and no treatment until it was too late.I too am mentally drained.I hate every day I am alive now.If this is the lonely life I have to live for the rest of my days then no thanks. I am almost 77 years of age and my life finished when Judith passed away. Michael x
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Time is not helping me at all.I do not feel any different after 15 weeks of this horrendous torture.Sorry to be so blunt but that is how I see.My life ended on 27th September 2021 at 2.15pm.I cannot wait to join her.I hate every day that I wake up and have to face another day of torment. Michael x
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Sorry for your loss
My husband passed away 15 weeks ago,I know what you are going through the grief is so painful when we lose our husbands/wives it really is unbearable,Iām not sleeping,never hungry,lost a lot of weight feel sick most of the time,feel like my heart is pounding,miss Steve so much first time ever been on my own makes me anxious
Iām glad we can express ourselves on here
Take care
Christine x
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Bless you Michael. So very sorry xx
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If itās any help I was in a terrible state after I lost my darling wife in June to cancer. I found it difficult to look at her picture without bursting into floods of tears, I found it difficult to talk about what happened. I found it difficult to believe that I would never see her again and typing on here was done through a film of tears.
I have no family but friends have been a great support although they canāt grasp what I am going through.
At Christmas I went on a cruise on my own, getting away from the house and familiar things was a great help, I had a chance to relax in a different environment and meet a great group of solo travelers many of whom had lost their partner at some stage so knew what support I needed.
At first talking about my loss brought floods of tears but I received nothing but genuine sympathy from people who know the feeling only too well.
I now find that whilst I still get chocked up at times a few deep breaths normally allow me to carry on, the tears still come but not the uncontrollable torrents anymore now they flow more gently, for a shorter period and less frequently.
I know that I still have a long journey ahead but slowly and surely I appear to be coming to terms with my situation and my loss.
Everyoneās journey will be different, there is no timescale to this and we will all have relapses. All we can do is be as strong as we can because our late partners would want us to do that, I know that is what my wife wanted me to do.
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26 weeks for me, I know we all feel the same great pain of loss but we feel it differently, some days I can get up feeling quite positive, shower get dressed, red letter day if I also do my hair but then some days the wave of loss overwhelms me and I cry from the minute my eyes open, the realisation that I will never see, talk, hold or kiss my Keith again knocks me back, on those days Iām useless to the point I canāt even make a cup of tea or eat anything just lost in my own thoughts of loss, fear for the future and Iām lonely so lonely its a loneliness that no one can fill only Keith. We just have to keep going somehow, hugs to all xx
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Oh what a sad post,it just about sums up how we all are feeling right now.The loneliness ,the thought of never seeing ,kissing ,holding our loved ones is enough to tip you over the edge.I just do not know if I want to keep going at the moment,just feel so lost without her. Michael x
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Thank you for caring . Michael x
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Hi Christine,we are on the same timeline then 15 weeks ago we lost our partners.Your Steve and my Judith.27/09/2021 at 2.15pm my life ended .She was gone right in my arms.I am so sad today,seems to be getting worse again.I still cannot believe it some days until I see her ashes still there on her settee.Sleeping and eating mean nothing anymore.I really do not want this miserable life . Michael x
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