Long hard day but like you say time to reflect, time to regroup, feel worn out tonight. Thank you, how are you feeling xx
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Take care , we are here for you
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Just put all the paperwork away, which has been sat on my lounge floor for last few weeks, I even have been hoovering around it xx
@MJG ive put everything away together in a box, inquest papers, cards etc. not sure Iāll ever look at them again x
Glad it is over. It is harrowing but you wonāt have to face it again.
Be gentle on yourself- you will be exhausted. X
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I donāt think I will either. Iāve had a really bad day, non stop crying, do not want to see anyone. My partner heās been home all day with me. I think itās rebound from yesterday plus Iāve had a lot of phone calls to do with the outcome. I feel Iāve gone backwards a few months xx
I am exhausted and had a really bad day, most of it crying. I think itās all caught up with me from yesterday xx
Itās all those built up emotions leading up to inquest coming out .
You will feel drained .
Go with it .
Cry a river.
No one would expect you to be any different .
Donāt be hard on yourself
Self care is needed.
Take care 
Thank you. Yep go with it, my so called best friend didnāt get itā¦oh a bit upset are you in a messageā¦understandable she said. Not a bloody clue on how I feel, broken again. She tried to come up and see me when I said I did t want to see anyone, saw my partner , he told her the same and she walked off in a huff he said, oh well, I canāt be dealing with it. I have gone backwards. I couldnāt even drive today as my partner thought it would be good to go out, he doesnāt drive since having bad car accident. Told him Iām not fit or safe today. Early night tonight as worn out.
How are you coping as I feel itās all about me and apologise for that. All of you are my lifeline as I wouldnāt cope otherwise xx
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Donāt apologise.
We are all on this horrendous never ending journey together . Well not a journey because journeys have an end !
There will be times we need you and you will help us .
Get a good nights rest if you can and see what tomorrow brings .
You are so right this journey will never end. Guess itās a very very bumpy road. Always here for you and thank youš xx
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Hi, Iām so sorry for your loss. Iām in a very similar situation, my daughter died at 18 - reason for death still isnāt confirmed but we believe it was due to substance misuse (sheās had issues with using solvents for the past two years / mental health struggles). I really appreciate you sharing this as I wasnāt too sure what to expect from the inquest. Trying to get information is proving difficult as I canāt even get through to the coroner. It helps to understand what I may receive as I know they did a post mortem. If thereās anything I can do to help at all please let me know. Take care xx
Thank you. If I can help you with anything for the inquest please message. All I can see is I thought I was prepared to read the post mortem and toxicology resultsā¦I wasnāt, I found it very distressing. My son lost his life to a fatal amount of oxycodone and and morphine, aspiration pneumonia which the coroner thinks could of happened few days prior and gave him a lung infection and subacute bacterial endocarditis, he had this several years agoā¦all due to drug use. I saw him on the Wednesday and he was fine, gone on the Friday. I have no idea where he got those drugs from, neither have the police. He had used so many drugs over the years including herion. Itās so sad but I did like you would have everything I possible could. He was kind, caring, loving, very intelligent, had a good job. My heart goes out to anyone who is coping with a loved one who is using drugs or alcohol. Take care
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Thank you for this. The last time I saw my daughter she had taken an overdose and was in hospital, but she discharged herself. The waiting for the results is so difficult as I donāt know if that was the issue that caused her death or if it was just the substance misuse. I think Iām going to try and get some legal support. Really appreciate you sharing this. Sending love.
My son passed on August but our inquest is not until end of April. His blood snd urine sample was sent to Birmingham and we were told its up to 20 week wait. My son was only seen by primary care mental health team and at the moment im trying ti get a copy of their notes ( which is proving difficult) as his diary notes he wrote as part of the CBT are alarming and if they knew he should have been referred further.
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Iām so sorry to hear of your loss Taff. Iāve spoken to the coroner now and they think that we should have the results by the end of the month. Itās just awful to hear that you felt that he should have been referred further. There have definitely been a lot of failings in my daughterās case, but equally at the same time she knew what she was doing and the risks associated with it. Itās difficult as I feel that the support she received was lacking and I think her capacity to make decisions was limited due to the issues she experienced with her personality disorder. It really helps to hear otherās experiences so thank you for sharing this. In terms of making requests for notes did you do that through the coroner? Iāve asked for a call back from a legal service to see if they can support me as I donāt feel Iāve got the experience to navigate this and make sure we get the answers we need. We canāt bring her back but if I struggle to get back to work I feel we will need some financial support so that I can give my son the best possible life. Itās hard as I would never want to deplete a service like the NHS financially but equally sometimes the only reason things change or improve is because there is a consequence. I so desperately want to make sure that other parents in this position are protected and hopefully that the same mistakes wouldnāt be made again. My poor girl deserves some kind of justice. Sometimes I donāt know if itās just the anger part of my grief, and Iām certainly not blaming any one individual involved in her care as I think the people themselves did their best, itās just that the framework for support didnāt meet her unique needs.
I asked the hospital for the notes, they said ask GPā¦im still waiting for a reply but they wont have them. CBT was completely wrong for him, he was neurodiverse and couldnt work out a way forward so isolated himself at university and got more and more ridged in his ways and thinking. He was seeing people, on his computer found a list of rules he had to abide byā¦i feel CBT contributed to this but want to see if he told them what he has written down.
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Itās so important to have answers isnāt it, I really hope that you get what you need. Thinking of you.
Taff how did the weekend go as I know you were anxious about it xx